Hi Pinnochia,
Glad my comments sort of made sense, the people closest to me who I felt able to deal with things know about what I am doing and having their support means a lot, I guess I have kind of put off dealing with the people who will be more negative and more difficult to bring around for some point in the future.
I really difficult issue for me at present is an ex colleague I who I am really close to as in we have a pseudo brotherly sort of bond or at least did. I dont think would understand at all why I am doing this. He even made jokes about my gender identity and sexuality from the colour shirts I would wear and the fact I am reasonably competent in the kitchen. Although he was only joking, I think deep down he associates gender identity and sexuality way too closely. I dont think he would understand that the changes arent to do with sexuality (in fact I think I am pretty much asexual) but I am doing this because it is who I really am and identify as.
Who I am now still likes a lot of and does the same things as before, but takes much better care of her appearance and health and is a lot friendlier towards people in general and definately smiles a lot more. I guess a lot of my positive traits were female even when male, so I just feel like I am giving up the negative ones. The new me is different but is essentially the same person who I have always been, it would be easier people were more accepting but in some ways that is one of the hardest challenges on the journey.
I guess for those close to you they either accept things or you have to cut them out of your life if they dont or cant. But I do wish the choice didnt feel like such a binary one.
Sorry if this is rambling - that is one bad trait I have developed over the past few months!
Megan
Glad my comments sort of made sense, the people closest to me who I felt able to deal with things know about what I am doing and having their support means a lot, I guess I have kind of put off dealing with the people who will be more negative and more difficult to bring around for some point in the future.
I really difficult issue for me at present is an ex colleague I who I am really close to as in we have a pseudo brotherly sort of bond or at least did. I dont think would understand at all why I am doing this. He even made jokes about my gender identity and sexuality from the colour shirts I would wear and the fact I am reasonably competent in the kitchen. Although he was only joking, I think deep down he associates gender identity and sexuality way too closely. I dont think he would understand that the changes arent to do with sexuality (in fact I think I am pretty much asexual) but I am doing this because it is who I really am and identify as.
Who I am now still likes a lot of and does the same things as before, but takes much better care of her appearance and health and is a lot friendlier towards people in general and definately smiles a lot more. I guess a lot of my positive traits were female even when male, so I just feel like I am giving up the negative ones. The new me is different but is essentially the same person who I have always been, it would be easier people were more accepting but in some ways that is one of the hardest challenges on the journey.
I guess for those close to you they either accept things or you have to cut them out of your life if they dont or cant. But I do wish the choice didnt feel like such a binary one.
Sorry if this is rambling - that is one bad trait I have developed over the past few months!
Megan