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IMO I think your just overthinking things. I know using hand sanitizers is a slippery slope. When you get used to using it, when you dont you feel unclean or tend to worry about getting something. I've been there myself. The reality is the overwhelming evidence shows most bacteria in public is good for us. There is only a small percentage that can make us sick. Personally I think your just experiencing some anxiety, which by the way can peak its ugly head out in many different ways. I would suggest you only use hand sanitizers when you are around someone you know to be sick or infected with something. Get some exercise if you dont already. Studies show exercise is great for anxiety.