[going no where]

I ordered some PM, havent got it yet. Ive also been doing a lot of research on the subject. I'm not really going for any transition or anything but I like the idea of loss of libido and perky nipples. That said I dont want full on boobs. My wife would freak out and honestly I cant discuss this with her. I am also not a cross dresser and dont really have any huge desire to be feminine. Im just concerned about straddling the fence per say and if anyone has had success with this. I'm also concerned because I've read of some who became addicted to the affects and had a hard time stopping. Am I playing with fire? Of course. Any I'm willing to accept any and all outcomes. Just trying to get an idea if this is possible or anyone has succeeded staying on the fence. Thanks