[Katie]

That's another part that scares me. I really don't know what I want to get out of this.

And it should concern you too!

Hormones aren't things to be messed with unless you have a Clear idea in mind First.
Before taking Anything! Have aseriously good and long think about what is you DO actually want, then do some research, make a plan, and Absolutely stick to it!
Dont deviate from it or up the plan tonsomething further away, just set simple goals, and at the end of each, take a breather and reassess what if anything you want to add.

Iv been at the rush in and dont care about consequences stage myself, and its much better to set little goals and achieve them regularly