(16-10-2015, 10:40 PM)iaboy Wrote: I would tend to agree, that's not the issue... But to refer to yourself in the third person, and what you say about your feminine side gets tangled with your wife... Seriously, have you ever talked to somebody about your thoughts and such?
Please leave your amateur psychology at the door. Julie's post was crystal clear and consistent with a certain level of gender dysphoria. Those of us who experience some gender dysphoria have all typically had the WTF moment and felt the shame that caused us to destroy all hints of our experiments into the opposite gender.
If you haven't experienced these WTF moments or understand what Julie is conveying it may be because you came to your current position via a separate path that didn't include gender dysphoria.
I have experienced many of these WTF moments over the decades. 17 years ago I grew tired of all the WTF moments of ditching my panties and ditched all of my male briefs instead. I decided that from that point forward panties would be a constant. Since then gender dysphoria has peaked a few times.
The end of 2011 I weighed in at about 260 and found PM for the first time. I went through many months of tender breasts and tender emotions. At some point in 2012 I stopped while waiting for a large PM order and never picked back up.
In Jan 2014 the gender dysphoria peaked again. I searched for where I placed the PM but I couldn't find them. I was 280 and due to a lack of PM and the thought that fatter moobs wouldn't be a good thing I somehow managed to refocus myself with the goal of losing weight. Now, 21 months later, I am under 180 lbs, I finally have bras that fit and have worn one every day for 10 weeks. This time instead of PM I am going for a little more peace of mind and with my wife's blessing I will be doing Informed Consent HRT. I will not ever be presenting as anything other than male, but I think this will give me the perspective for which I've been looking.
@julieTG I guess I have decided to feed my inner girl this time.