[Miranda-nata-est]

I must have just about drunk the southern hemisphere dry of red wine!! Couple of bottles a day minimum for as long as I can remember plus beer and spirits. I also threw myself with wild abandon into just about anything hedonistic - pretty off the wall sex stuff, fast cars and bikes (went well with being permanently drunk - but I got away with it), dabbled with drugs and majored in activities with a high degree of personal danger - anything to get the adrenaline pumping.

I wasn't aware I was burying something or numbing anything, or, maybe I did subconsciously know that I was sort of papering over the black hole at my core. I thought that what I was trying to do was to find the missing 'IT' which I assumed would be some sort of pleasure based thing (or a religious thing which, ironically, I have also delved into in some depth).


I too look forward but with a glance over my shoulder. I am who I am thanks to my past.

Miranda