[Miranda-nata-est]

It's interesting that you mention the Pink Fog aspect. As I think everyone here in the GM section knows by now I have stopped taking the herbals and gone to full synthetics in my process to transition. One of the things I find myself still struggling with is being out in public. I have always been most comfortable in jeans (or khaki shorts) and a t-shirt.

Now more than 4 months into full on HRT I find an odd shift going on between my ears. I look at myself in the mirror and I want to look good. I want clothing that fits, not clothing that is loose. I painted my nails and now every time I catch a glimpse of my hands in the mirror I no longer hate what I see. I have actually stopped and enjoyed the feminine look of my hands.

As my breasts develop I find myself looking in the mirror, wanting to see if their shape and form is noticeable. Not because I want to hide them.. but because as they develop I find myself more and more satisfied with my body. Things are starting to FEEL right. My mental shift and attitudes are finally aligning with my internal sense of who I am.


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For me.. I am starting to think I have entered the "Pink Fog" part of my transition and it makes me very happy indeed. Now if I could just make my breasts grow to their proper size over night and make the area under my nipples stop hurting so much I would be ecstatic lol.

~Elain

Hi Elain,

you just wait - it gets better and better!!!!!!

As you have doubtlessly realised, once you reach a certain point, there is absolutely no way back - not that anyone who has reached this point for the right reasons would ever consider going back. You cannot unlearn the things you now know.


My advice is to get onto the hair reduction ASAP. This is the most protracted individual physical process of them all and is extremely time consuming. 50 hours of electro so far and I am just beginning to see some reduction in places, I estimate some 2 - 300 hours to get a reasonable clearance followed by an ongoing program of infrequent tidy ups.

Glad to hear your journey to date is going well - savour every moment!!


Miranda


PS You talk about clothing choice issues .... Take a good look at what the cis gendered females around you are wearing when out and about in daily life.... for example, jeans and pretty tops are quite common around our neighbourhood on nice days at this time of year. It is only when dressing up for an evening out that the chic clothing and time consuming make-up comes out. There is a tendency for Trans people to almost try too hard to look glam and glitzy at all times. This actually has the opposite effect to the one desired by most of them, it just makes them stand out as different. So, not only age appropriate clothing, but time and place appropriate clothing also.