[WantAPair]

I wasn't really a 'gentle' boy growing up. I was the outcast. The geek. The kid who's IQ was so high that the teachers couldn't understand why I got D's and F's when I was capable of straight A's without any real effort. I was the kid who preferred to be alone. Who would skip school to go fishing rather than have to be around my teachers and classmates. I was the loner. I was hiding from everyone, myself included, even then.

I cross dressed in my childhood, though I hid that from EVERYONE. When I hit adulthood I only did that on rare occasions and always felt great while doing it but the guilt I would feel after... would throw me off for months, sometimes for years.

~Elain

I was also the outcast. Always TRYING to make friends, but, somehow, collecting more enemies than friends. Not a geek or a major brain. I was smarter than a lot of the other kids, but was never given the chance very often to show it and always made out to be the class idiot, partly because I grew up REAL fast, out-growing my clothes before I even had them for half a year: what fit nicely at Christmas was way too small by the end of the school year in June! And, partly because I was the tallest kid in the class, so, I stuck out like a sore thumb! Not having any front teeth during my 12th to 13th year didn't help, either!
I, too, preferred to be all by my lonesome...to a degree. At least that way I could "stay out of trouble". I never got INTO trouble, trouble always found me and then I got punished for it! Sitting all by myself at the far end of the cafeteria one day, some kid I'd NEVER even HEARD of before comes up me from out of nowhere and starts demanding I give him the 25 cents I borrowed from him!! After turning him down a few times, he starts fighting me!! Next thing I know, I'M in the principal's office being reprimanded for starting a fight!!
I never skipped classes until 7th grade when we suddenly HAD to get naked in the locker room in gym class!! If that wasn't bad enough, some of the more asshole-type kids would get their jollies by trying to spray deodorant on the nuts of some of the "weaker" kids. I wasn't interested at all in either of those factions of that class, so, I'd skip it any time I could.
I started attempting to cross-dress around the age of 5 or 8, I can't seem to recall which. I think I was probably 8. Stealing mom's bras, at first, eventually nicking my little sisters' things, getting into tampons, eventually actually buying my own pantyhose. I wore a pair of red one's to my grandmother's funeral when I was about 16. I hardly remember ANYTHING about the funeral other than being scared that someone would see my pantyhose under my pants!! Growing so fast, my pants quickly nearly became shorts!! So, there was always the risk of them riding up enough to show off my pantyhose! About 6 years later, I joined my band and after another 4 years, started wearing a mini skirt, tights or pantyhose and a leotard on stage for every show! On a few cases, I even wore a bra with the cups loaded with a pair of Nerf balls! I'm sitting here trying to figure out HOW I introduced the skirt to the band and I just can't recall!! Seems to me I was already wearing a unitard about 18 months before that! My singer & I shot a video in 1984 where I pretended to play drums to the song being used and I KNOW I wore my shiny blue unitard! I was worried that, with chromo key, the blue just might make all but my head, hands and feet disappear!! Anyway, I'm pretty sure that was nearly 2 years before the skirt came along.
In the late `80's/early `90's, Curves came along and I couldn't WAIT to get my own pair!! I finally did about 4 years later! What BLISS it was to FINALLY have tits!!!!