29-06-2010, 06:10 AM
Greetings and salutations Breastquest.
I can not say that I regret the decision to develop my breasts. My decision to do so has come after many years. Of having the desire to have breasts. Ever since I was a small boy I felt that I was missing breasts. I felt like they were something I was supposed to have. Over the years these feelings that I should be more femine in form, never really went away. As I grew older I simply told myself that I was a guy and these feelings were un-natural (sinful). So the emotions just became repressed instead. That lead to some closet crossdressing with the usual result of repress, collect, guilt, purge process. There was also the fear that accepting and delving into this would take me someplace I did not want to go. Depression also came into the picture these last few years. I believe partially as a result of this repression.
The end of last year and the begining of this year were particularly hard for me. I had several bad emotional events. During the first part of this year time I spent a great deal of time on the internet. I had decided I was going to accept that I wanted to grow my breast. I looked for an idea of what I was. I discovered that there were other men out there that felt the way I did. That there was a wide range of transgender. Most did not feel the need to go full transition. So I accepted that I was a guy who had a female side and wanted boobs. Since this acceptance and decission to try and develop female physical attributes. My mental and emtional state has been much better. Not perfect, but much better. Still a work in progress.
So my decision to grow breasts. Came out of an acceptance of a part of myself that I had repressed. So no, I can't say that I regret it at all.
Good luck in your journey. I hope reach your goals.
andy
I can not say that I regret the decision to develop my breasts. My decision to do so has come after many years. Of having the desire to have breasts. Ever since I was a small boy I felt that I was missing breasts. I felt like they were something I was supposed to have. Over the years these feelings that I should be more femine in form, never really went away. As I grew older I simply told myself that I was a guy and these feelings were un-natural (sinful). So the emotions just became repressed instead. That lead to some closet crossdressing with the usual result of repress, collect, guilt, purge process. There was also the fear that accepting and delving into this would take me someplace I did not want to go. Depression also came into the picture these last few years. I believe partially as a result of this repression.
The end of last year and the begining of this year were particularly hard for me. I had several bad emotional events. During the first part of this year time I spent a great deal of time on the internet. I had decided I was going to accept that I wanted to grow my breast. I looked for an idea of what I was. I discovered that there were other men out there that felt the way I did. That there was a wide range of transgender. Most did not feel the need to go full transition. So I accepted that I was a guy who had a female side and wanted boobs. Since this acceptance and decission to try and develop female physical attributes. My mental and emtional state has been much better. Not perfect, but much better. Still a work in progress.
So my decision to grow breasts. Came out of an acceptance of a part of myself that I had repressed. So no, I can't say that I regret it at all.
Good luck in your journey. I hope reach your goals.
andy