[bryony]

Not necessarily, but i am craving males more often and have also been fantazsing about being a woman in a relationship.

How exactly is this different to being a straight male who craves other women more and more? Who perhaps has straight fantasies about slutty prostitutes?

I dont want to cheat on my wife. I have been on that road before and i broke her trust and hurted her pretty bad.

So instead you will discard her and your kids who have every right to expect a loving family relationship and will instead grow up to regard you as someone who thought dressing up as a woman and getting screwed was more important than them.

I want to be honest with myself and her, but i dont know if what i want a dual role is even possible.

From where I stand, honesty is less important than accepting your responsibilities.

I am just confused as heck. I understand that grass on the side always look greener, but i am not even sure what to look on the other side

Why didn't you think about that _before_ you proposed and became a father?

The moral relativists really did a number on Western society didn't it? "If you get fed up with being a husband and father, just toss them away. You only get one life - don't waste it on someone who loves you, have meaningless sex with a stranger instead."

I don't know what amazes me more - someone coming here discussing his desire to chuck his wife and kids for self-satisfaction or other people advising the best way to do it.

Bah!