[Misty0732]

But what I DO get is to experience life as I feel I was made to experience it, for the rest of my life. I get to be identified as, and treated like the girl I know myself to be, for the rest of my life!

Hi Kari,

I think the statement above best describes the difference between us. I can't say I was "made to experience" life as a women. I have heard others say they "know" they are female, despite the physical male attributes, but I cannot say this. I know I "wish" I were female, but I can't say that I "am" female, nor that I even "should have been" female.

Is this simply a different spot on the TG scale, or is it something else altogether? I sometimes think my desire to be female is nothing more than a sexual fetish, and that the relief I get from PM is due to the PM squashing my sexual desires (including the fetish). At other times I think that isn't the case because I am a *much* more likeable person when I'm taking PM.

My 3 month break has reawakened my GD. I started back on PM a few days ago... hopefully the peace I once enjoyed will return.

Misty