[WantAPair]

As for Kari's suggestion of writing your way through it. One thing you can do is to open up another e-mail account and when you feel like writing about any part of how you feel now, do so in an e-mail and send that to your new account! You don't have to open it and read it, you know what you just wrote, but, maybe a few months to a year or so down the road, go there and open them and read what you wrote and you can take note of how much you've advanced in that amount of time, or notice how different you felt about things "back then" and how much you've progressed since then.

That's an awesome idea WantAPair! I wish I had saved my writing in a similar format but before I thought of it, I had already written volumes here. When it was assembled a month ago, I had about 250 pages of small text! I'm convinced that's why I haven't needed a professional counselor.

Yeah, that COULD be a good way to avoid counseling!
I haven't done it in years, but, in a way, I still do, so to speak. I have a great friend that I tend to write those kinds of things to, now, and sometimes she writes back in response. Most of the time, she's too busy with her kids and working at least 2 jobs, but, she DOES still respond amicably. When we first met 12 years ago, she was still single and we'd spend hours at a time chatting in IM online and on the phone!! I'd help her as much as I could and she'd help me as much as she could. We're like siblings! The loving kind! (None of my real siblings treat me that way.)