Chances are, there's a "club" for people like us in your area. I used to belong to one where gay, trans or CD people would get together one night a week for dinner and chat at a local gay eatery. See if you can find one to join. If there isn't one, maybe try to get on Craigslist and start one! We have a local entertainment paper that weekly tells you where such meetings might take place. They have something called, "Outrageous Bingo" where we'd get together once a month dressed as we please and play bingo!
As for your particular story; I've been pretty much like you most of my life, I was already showing it by the age of 2! But, I never felt the need to do what boys do JUST because I happened to have a "Boy" membership card between my legs!! I've never been into sports and don't much go in for rough and tumble, slap & tickle bouts. My thing has always been records, which, when I was little, was mostly seen as a girl thing!! I DID like girls!! Still do!! But, on one hand, I want be WITH a girl, the way a guy does, and, on the other hand, I want to BE a girl!! I'd LOVE to have a romantic/sexual relationship with a girl AS a girl, but, I'd also love to do so with a guy and eventually get preggers and pound out a few units.
Unlike you, I've NEVER closeted my girl half!! I don't mean that I let her out all the time...I WISH!!!! I just mean that I never suddenly got rid of all my girl stuff and shunned it for years at a time.
As for girl on girl porn, I don't know if you've ever seen any of them, but Ed Powers has a series out called, "Cockless", which I LOVE and, as far as I'm concerned, are the BEST pornos out there!! I've only got number 2 and 6, but haven't been able to find any of the others, yet. In the ones I have, it's only two girls per session, sometimes just one, and, when it IS two girls, they seem to be VERY genuine and actually feel love for each other!! It's GREAT!!!! Sometimes Ed takes a chance to stick a finger in, but that's it as far as guys being involved...that and seeing him shooting the video from time to time and giving a bit of direction. Mostly, he just gets the girls together, eventually tells them to just go ahead and do what they want and they take it from there! After seeing my first one (number 2), it actually made me want to throw away ALL my other porn videos!! They just CAN'T compare to this!!
I WISH I could tool around the house and in public in girl mode, but, that's not possible, at the moment. I DID, however, get it in SOME public forum, as in, dressing fem for my band's gigs!! My fans not only loved it, they INSISTED I do it and were genuinely cheesed off if I didn't!! Sadly, the band broke up 10 years ago and I can't seem to put another one together for flakey musos that SAY they want to be in a band like the one I want to do, but never bother to follow through with it!!
Take care!! And, good luck with getting what you want out of life!!
As for your particular story; I've been pretty much like you most of my life, I was already showing it by the age of 2! But, I never felt the need to do what boys do JUST because I happened to have a "Boy" membership card between my legs!! I've never been into sports and don't much go in for rough and tumble, slap & tickle bouts. My thing has always been records, which, when I was little, was mostly seen as a girl thing!! I DID like girls!! Still do!! But, on one hand, I want be WITH a girl, the way a guy does, and, on the other hand, I want to BE a girl!! I'd LOVE to have a romantic/sexual relationship with a girl AS a girl, but, I'd also love to do so with a guy and eventually get preggers and pound out a few units.
Unlike you, I've NEVER closeted my girl half!! I don't mean that I let her out all the time...I WISH!!!! I just mean that I never suddenly got rid of all my girl stuff and shunned it for years at a time.
As for girl on girl porn, I don't know if you've ever seen any of them, but Ed Powers has a series out called, "Cockless", which I LOVE and, as far as I'm concerned, are the BEST pornos out there!! I've only got number 2 and 6, but haven't been able to find any of the others, yet. In the ones I have, it's only two girls per session, sometimes just one, and, when it IS two girls, they seem to be VERY genuine and actually feel love for each other!! It's GREAT!!!! Sometimes Ed takes a chance to stick a finger in, but that's it as far as guys being involved...that and seeing him shooting the video from time to time and giving a bit of direction. Mostly, he just gets the girls together, eventually tells them to just go ahead and do what they want and they take it from there! After seeing my first one (number 2), it actually made me want to throw away ALL my other porn videos!! They just CAN'T compare to this!!
I WISH I could tool around the house and in public in girl mode, but, that's not possible, at the moment. I DID, however, get it in SOME public forum, as in, dressing fem for my band's gigs!! My fans not only loved it, they INSISTED I do it and were genuinely cheesed off if I didn't!! Sadly, the band broke up 10 years ago and I can't seem to put another one together for flakey musos that SAY they want to be in a band like the one I want to do, but never bother to follow through with it!!
Take care!! And, good luck with getting what you want out of life!!