[Justine DeLaCroix]

Thank you so much for your kind words, they are quiet helpful and soothing.
Knowing I'm not alone out there is really good.
it is just so damn confusing and I, shamefully, have to admit there were moments were I contemplated ending it all, just so that the suffering is over.
I looked a little bit around and lo and behold there is actually a support group in the next town over. And if I have the guts I will go their next meeting.

But it is still so difficult and confusing, all these voices in my head shouting and screaming at me. My male body and my female psyche are at war and it drives me nuts.

You know what the "fun" part is, I'm trained in the field of psychology and of while studying I lerned about gender dysphoria, but of course I cannot give myself therapy.

I actually thought about specialising in the field, but then went I diffrent route.

And of course there is always the question nagging: why me? Why was I born this way?

I hate it, I hate these feelings and sometimes I feel like screaming all day long.

Sorry for rambeling and sorry, if my english is sometimes weird, it is not my mothers tongue.
I'm actually from Germany.

Thanks again for your answers and your time.

Love,

your confused Justine.