02-02-2015, 05:07 PM
Hi Fast,
Yours is a common problem among TG guys. It was for me. It got so bad that I had to do something. PM was the answer for me. It shifted my sex hormone balance and cleared my mind very effectively.
I, too, was convinced that my gender identity was primarily male, although I wanted breasts and fantasized about being female. I realize now that it was a way to cope with my GD. The PM got rid of those symptoms.
The effect was welcome, so I kept taking the PM even as my breasts started to grow. I became frightened about that, not knowing how it would affect my marriage and my life in general, but the mental peace I achieved on PM was just too good to give up. I stopped taking the PM for short periods, but my GD symptoms and behaviors returned. I couldn't wait to get back on PM for relief.
My sex life as a man was never that great, and on PM it disappeared altogether. That, too, was a concern, but my DW was happy with my being so much more relaxed and happy on PM that she was okay with me continuing to take it.
As time went on I started to identify more and more as a woman. I speculate that the higher estrogen concentration in my system started to activate parts of my brain that were intrinsically female. My sense of being male slowly faded with each passing week.
Eventually, I had to face the fact that I wanted to be female more than I wanted to be male. The prospect of going off PM, and later synthetic estrogen, was repulsive to me. I couldn't find the elusive 'middle ground' that was so appealing on a conscious level. I wanted to keep moving forward.
Today, I am out as a transwoman to my family, relatives, and friends. It's where I feel most comfortable and happy. It is my true self. I'm still working on integrating my new identity into the world at large, but it has not been particularly difficult for me. People today are more tolerant of transgenders so most of my fears of rejection and discrimination were overblown. The world is waking up to transgender people at last.
This is just my story. There are thousands of stories that take a different course. Yours will be different still. I do think it would be useful to try a 1000 mg of PM for a few months to see if shifting your sex hormone balance a little would help. Good luck to you.
Clara
Yours is a common problem among TG guys. It was for me. It got so bad that I had to do something. PM was the answer for me. It shifted my sex hormone balance and cleared my mind very effectively.
I, too, was convinced that my gender identity was primarily male, although I wanted breasts and fantasized about being female. I realize now that it was a way to cope with my GD. The PM got rid of those symptoms.
The effect was welcome, so I kept taking the PM even as my breasts started to grow. I became frightened about that, not knowing how it would affect my marriage and my life in general, but the mental peace I achieved on PM was just too good to give up. I stopped taking the PM for short periods, but my GD symptoms and behaviors returned. I couldn't wait to get back on PM for relief.
My sex life as a man was never that great, and on PM it disappeared altogether. That, too, was a concern, but my DW was happy with my being so much more relaxed and happy on PM that she was okay with me continuing to take it.
As time went on I started to identify more and more as a woman. I speculate that the higher estrogen concentration in my system started to activate parts of my brain that were intrinsically female. My sense of being male slowly faded with each passing week.
Eventually, I had to face the fact that I wanted to be female more than I wanted to be male. The prospect of going off PM, and later synthetic estrogen, was repulsive to me. I couldn't find the elusive 'middle ground' that was so appealing on a conscious level. I wanted to keep moving forward.
Today, I am out as a transwoman to my family, relatives, and friends. It's where I feel most comfortable and happy. It is my true self. I'm still working on integrating my new identity into the world at large, but it has not been particularly difficult for me. People today are more tolerant of transgenders so most of my fears of rejection and discrimination were overblown. The world is waking up to transgender people at last.
This is just my story. There are thousands of stories that take a different course. Yours will be different still. I do think it would be useful to try a 1000 mg of PM for a few months to see if shifting your sex hormone balance a little would help. Good luck to you.
Clara