26-12-2014, 06:19 AM
Thanks, Sammie... I have always valued your inputs. I do agree that all of us here (taking pharma HRT or PM) are indeed in transition. I remember starting a thread sometime a few months back saying essentially the same thing. I guess the difference between the "non-transitioners" and the "transitioners" is really the degree of the transition and the ultimate end-goal. Those of us who do not intend to legally change our names and present as female 24/7 are what I would call the "non-transitioners".
Still, I know that I am not the "man" I used to be. I am much more a woman who chooses to present as male (and who happens to have male genitalia). My primary reason, as I have stated before and share with many others, is that I am committed to a marriage and have family ties that I will not risk for the sake of making the full transition.
I know that there are others here who started out with basically the same plan (but since have gone much further). There are most likely others who originally thought that full transition was their goal and then changed their minds as they progressed. I don't (and can't) judge any of them as they must follow their own paths.
My wife is not supportive of full transition and so it is not an option for me. I love her more than my life itself and absolutely will not bring any pain on her, pain I know she will endure very deeply if I moved in that direction. I'm fortunate that the PM helps me control the GID to the point that I am comfortable with that decision. She knows about my GID and is supportive of my taking PM, growing breasts, and wearing women's undergarments and PJs. She very much prefers the person I am while on PM, even though she knows that I am slowing feminizing. So long as I remain her "husband" she is very supportive and we are very, very close.
As far as the conversations on this forum... I accept the positions and explanations stated. It is comforting and a relief to know that I remain welcome and can participate even though I have opted not to fully transition. I will continue to offer that alternative to others, especially new members. Not as competition to those fully transitioning nor to cause dissension but rather to offer hope to those who find themselves in a situation similar to mine.
On your last point -- I learned a long time ago to *never* say never. I almost always wind up doing or becoming that which I swore would never happen. Does that mean that I may ultimately go for full transition? Maybe. Time will tell. In the meantime, I will remain male. A better man than I was, thanks to the women inside of me, but male none the less.
Take care!
Misty
Still, I know that I am not the "man" I used to be. I am much more a woman who chooses to present as male (and who happens to have male genitalia). My primary reason, as I have stated before and share with many others, is that I am committed to a marriage and have family ties that I will not risk for the sake of making the full transition.
I know that there are others here who started out with basically the same plan (but since have gone much further). There are most likely others who originally thought that full transition was their goal and then changed their minds as they progressed. I don't (and can't) judge any of them as they must follow their own paths.
My wife is not supportive of full transition and so it is not an option for me. I love her more than my life itself and absolutely will not bring any pain on her, pain I know she will endure very deeply if I moved in that direction. I'm fortunate that the PM helps me control the GID to the point that I am comfortable with that decision. She knows about my GID and is supportive of my taking PM, growing breasts, and wearing women's undergarments and PJs. She very much prefers the person I am while on PM, even though she knows that I am slowing feminizing. So long as I remain her "husband" she is very supportive and we are very, very close.
As far as the conversations on this forum... I accept the positions and explanations stated. It is comforting and a relief to know that I remain welcome and can participate even though I have opted not to fully transition. I will continue to offer that alternative to others, especially new members. Not as competition to those fully transitioning nor to cause dissension but rather to offer hope to those who find themselves in a situation similar to mine.
On your last point -- I learned a long time ago to *never* say never. I almost always wind up doing or becoming that which I swore would never happen. Does that mean that I may ultimately go for full transition? Maybe. Time will tell. In the meantime, I will remain male. A better man than I was, thanks to the women inside of me, but male none the less.
Take care!
Misty