25-12-2014, 04:26 AM
Misty,
My faith remains as strong as ever! It carries me and without it, I doubt I'd survive this ordeal. I feel battered and tossed about, not wanting this path but knowing that I have little choice anymore. I know the one who goes with me and I'm very confident he is fine with all of it and I'm pretty sure he's got plans for me through it and on the other side. Perhaps in the church I'm at, perhaps with those I encounter on the way. I don't feel safe but I know he is trustworthy. The particulars of my faith are up for reconsideration but the foundations remain unshaken. I feel like I was swirling around the edges of the eddy when we first met but I'm getting sucked into the vortex now. I'm OK with it at times but fear overtakes me on occasion. Thankfully my wife and I are hanging on to each other like never before and we're doing this together. You and many others have and continue to be near and dear to my heart. You've all helped me in ways I could never begin to chronicle and no matter what, there will always me a special place in my heart for my friends at BN.
My faith remains as strong as ever! It carries me and without it, I doubt I'd survive this ordeal. I feel battered and tossed about, not wanting this path but knowing that I have little choice anymore. I know the one who goes with me and I'm very confident he is fine with all of it and I'm pretty sure he's got plans for me through it and on the other side. Perhaps in the church I'm at, perhaps with those I encounter on the way. I don't feel safe but I know he is trustworthy. The particulars of my faith are up for reconsideration but the foundations remain unshaken. I feel like I was swirling around the edges of the eddy when we first met but I'm getting sucked into the vortex now. I'm OK with it at times but fear overtakes me on occasion. Thankfully my wife and I are hanging on to each other like never before and we're doing this together. You and many others have and continue to be near and dear to my heart. You've all helped me in ways I could never begin to chronicle and no matter what, there will always me a special place in my heart for my friends at BN.