[Carys]

I've begun my regiment of PM again (but without the SP), but something is going on this time. Twice today I have had these sudden, horrible instances of intense depression. Like I suddenly just want to cry and I feel sad. So bad, that if I didn't have kids (one who was insistent the weekend on her not wanting me to die) then I may very well have done something to hurt myself. Suddenly all these thoughts about moving forward are long gone, and I just don't know what to do. Eventually it eases up, and I feel like I want to move forward again.

Is this at least somewhat normal? I just get thinking about debt, and my divorce, and how I feel like such a horrible person for putting my kids through all this stuff. I'm not sure what to do.