[hoselover]

I hope you have found some of this material in some way helpfull. I tend to ramble on and may not have touched on your questions or statements.

Hi Andy, certainly your words and from Cheryl are helpful and also stress that doing this is not all a game but could become serious business. As said before discussing this at home will be difficult and therefore I need to think about next steps before I do something.

I think things will be different as I was single. When young, I liked female clothes from approx. my 12th, somewhere where puberty started. It was before internet and sometimes you had men on tv in shows who crossdress. It was considered as not normal also at home. My mother found several times some stuff; not many words and all taken away and never got it back. If she then had started a discussion and gave me an idea that I could wear what I like I probably also started my relation in an other way. Now I put it away, met my girlfriend / now wife, was afraid to lose here after telling me my story and continued dreaming of female clothes etc. If my mother had treaten me differently and / or there was internet in my youth (like the youngster have now) I probably would have grown up more confident about this all and could have been more open about wearing female clothes.

Wanting breasts was always an unreachable dream form me. I read about hormones but never considered taking them. Last year I started with an investigation after herbs that help to create a more feminine body. I never knew what I know now about all those herbs.

So in short: I am a closed crossdresser and having a family now I choose for that but ifI could start again and knew what I know now, I think I should go for being more in female clothes and also be more open about wanting breasts.

Another question: How many men are currently here on the site that also use herbs to get breasts? Are those / you men that want breasts and nothing more, or also crossdressers or are you transsexual? What are the ages?