[JosephineDreams]

That was a very interesting post for me, EvaMarie.

I'm still as confused as ever after taking PM for few months. I don't really feel much different, perhaps a bit fatigued due to my body being used to higher T levels. Sometimes I wonder if I'm a fraud, a crossdressing pervert or just kidding myself. My ring/index finger ratio is masculine whereas supposedly for transwomen it is more feminine, so prenatal testosterone levels has nothing to do with what led me here. I have high systems intelligence and low emotional intelligence, a stereotypically masculine type brain, I'm probably the last person anyone would suspect of being trans. I don't fit the mould.

But I still want my body to be feminine, that is my ideal body image. Maybe I just can't deal with the pressure and expectations of being a man, didn't grow up mentally or running away from my confidence issues. I have no idea if I will ever transition, try to straddle somewhere in between, or revert to being a pretend man. BLEH!!!