[flamesabers]

Mental and physical balance in between the two extremes is my goal too.

I am not sure how many on this thread started aiming for androgynous or inbetweener, and are now looking at full transition, and how many are still trying to maintain the balance.

Is it possible? Or am I setting myself an impossible goal?

So many of the GD crowd on this site look so very feminine, is it possible to aim for the middle and still pass as male, even if after a point it might be fem-androgyne or MTF crossdressing as male?

Or if I follow this path will it become impossible to hide?

Jade,

With answer your questions I think it may be worth it to repeat what I posted earlier in this thread:

In regards to why some tweeners go on to full transition, I think there are two commonly proposed explanations. The first is pm can radically change one's brain beyond the dissipation of GD. The second is the tweeners who went on to transition were never tweeners in the first place. I'm not a fan of either explanation. The first I think suggests the idea that pm can act as a sort of mind-control agent. The second reeks of the "No true Scotsman" fallacy.

I've been taking pm for about 2.5 years now. I still consider myself to be a "betweener" or have an androgynous gender identity as I call it. When I went off of pm earlier this year, I concluded it would be best to get back on it. A significant reason why I consider myself to be a tweener is because I think it's my nature to test, bend and break the rules and expectations hoisted onto a particular gender identity. If I was a gg, I think I would still have transgender feelings to some extent. In contrast, I suspect those who are transitioning or want to, would be overjoyed if they could be a gg instead of a bio-male.

In my opinion, trying to pass as androgynous is a much simpler goal than pursuing the full transition route. Unless you already have pronounced feminine features, you're fighting an uphill battle to alter your body that has already been shaped by the process of male puberty. A trend I've noticed is those who appear most feminine tend to be pursuing HRT with a doctor's supervision and are exerting a significant amount of time and effort to dress and pass as a female.

Outside of NBE, I've reduced my facial significantly through laser hair removal. Despite having feminine breasts, my body structure and voice is much more aligned with being masculine than feminine. I suppose if I grew out my hair, lighten the tone of my voice, got a new wardrobe and started dabbling in cosmetics, people might start wondering whether I'm a male or female.