[❇ Abby ❇]

Oh, I can only imagine how wonderful that must have been with your brother! I am so happy for you. We have to make the most of those moments since they must carry us through darker ones. I try to store joy like that...lol

I can understand about things just "not coming up". I know when one first visits with a therapist after a long period of trying to cope alone there are so very many things to say by way of introduction that the gates just fling open and the tide gushes forth. But I also know there were things in my mind which still made me feel ashamed and which I was hesitant to reveal for fear of judgement from the therapist. It took me awhile to realize that I needed to trust her as I trust only myself if I wanted to really get any help. Now I know better, and there is nothing I am afraid to share with her. I realized the things I was afraid to voice were things I did not even want to admit to myself. I just wanted to be sure you were not falling into the same thing, and I see now that wasnt the case. Good for you, girlfriend! I think you are right, and letting her know about the TG issues can only help with your referrals and with moving toward settling all of your issues. One huge area for all of us is learning to seperate the various issues we face from the TG issue. Many of us deal with other concerns that can, before learning to distinguish differences, comingle with the TG elephant and make it so hard to make sense of the whole tangled affair within. Self esteem, codependency, sexuality, and a wide array of other complications can so often muddy the waters and make truly understanding our GID a daunting and intimidating task. It is small wonder depression is so often the result.
But only when we do isolate the other stuff can we really approach the elephant secure in knowing we do so honestly and armed with truth.
I know this will work out well for you my friend.
Hugs
Sammie

Thank you Samantha.

I still can't believe how easily my brother excepted it.

I agree with you about trying to separate the TG elephant and other issues. Self esteem, isolation and lack of confidence are my other issues at the moment. Sometimes placating my gender issues is the only thing keeping me sane and others times it's what causes my insanity.

I told my therapist about my gender issues and as I thought it was no surprise to her. She showed me that she hard written "gender?" on my assessment. Not sure what I think about that? Oh hell am I that obvious? lol

I admit at the moment I'm all analysed out. Too much thinking about past, motives, thoughts and feelings. Want to turn brain off to stop thinking for a bit. Feels like my brain is partly shutting down anyway. Self preservation? lol

One good side effect, I have done more art in last 2 weeks than I have in 2 years!



Denita