[Samantha Rogers]

Misty, no one can know where this will all take you, and not even you...not right now. As far as trying to chart a course, we all have different paths. Only you can really know what your situation is, what is important, and what is in your heart at each point.
I can tell you the majority of ts girls I have spoken to all say the same thing...do not transition further than you must. You will know when and if you cannot stand to not go further. The best choice is, they all say, when there is no longer a choice, when it is transition or die. Sorry to sound dramatic, but transition is not for the feint of heart. Lol
Of course, that said, it is obviously easier for some than others. For those of us with families and spouses and responsibilities to others it is super crazy hard. And, Clara is quite right...these hormones, whatever form, will affect your mind slowly, and may take you further than you ever expected. Really.
My only advice is take things slowly and carefully, considering everything and going only as far as you know you must.
Life is a series of tough choices and compromises.
I really wish you all the best, sweet heart.
Maybe, for now, just a lower dosage? See how it goes?
Hugs
Sammie