Hi Misty,
Yours and my motivation for starting PM and the results we've achieved are very similar, although it's only taken 9 months for me, and I have switched over to pharma HRT a little over two months ago, having decided to transition as far as I determine is necessary. I never intended to transition, I didn't want to grow large breasts (although the idea of it was attractive to me), and I reduced my PM dosage down to 1500, then to 1000 mg per day in an attempt to slow the obvious physical changes that were happening very quickly. I'm 5'-9" and lost 15 lbs. to 160. I can't hide my breasts anymore, and my female personality has blossomed lately. I have become rather open about my expression, wearing androgynous clothes, wearing nail polish, etc. I don't know if I'm transsexual, but I wouldn't discount the possibility.
My experience shows how things can snowball from innocent beginnings to a full blown transition to feminine expression on a daily basis if one is TG/TS. You have reason to be concerned, as I was. The potential for upheaval in your life is anything but benign and inconsequential. You are at the point of having to make a decision to continue, or stop this progression, if that is even possible. It wasn't for me. I've had to face the fact that I am solidly transgender and need to find my rightful place in the world with a gender expression that is authentic for my internal gender.
I don't know how easy that will be for you; I don't know you or your circumstances very well, but if you want to correspond privately for whatever help that might offer, please feel free.
Good luck and hugs,
Clara
Yours and my motivation for starting PM and the results we've achieved are very similar, although it's only taken 9 months for me, and I have switched over to pharma HRT a little over two months ago, having decided to transition as far as I determine is necessary. I never intended to transition, I didn't want to grow large breasts (although the idea of it was attractive to me), and I reduced my PM dosage down to 1500, then to 1000 mg per day in an attempt to slow the obvious physical changes that were happening very quickly. I'm 5'-9" and lost 15 lbs. to 160. I can't hide my breasts anymore, and my female personality has blossomed lately. I have become rather open about my expression, wearing androgynous clothes, wearing nail polish, etc. I don't know if I'm transsexual, but I wouldn't discount the possibility.
My experience shows how things can snowball from innocent beginnings to a full blown transition to feminine expression on a daily basis if one is TG/TS. You have reason to be concerned, as I was. The potential for upheaval in your life is anything but benign and inconsequential. You are at the point of having to make a decision to continue, or stop this progression, if that is even possible. It wasn't for me. I've had to face the fact that I am solidly transgender and need to find my rightful place in the world with a gender expression that is authentic for my internal gender.
I don't know how easy that will be for you; I don't know you or your circumstances very well, but if you want to correspond privately for whatever help that might offer, please feel free.
Good luck and hugs,
Clara