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I've been wondering about other people's experience regarding shifting gender identity, particularly since starting NBE.

I don't know if gender identity (an internal sense of identifying with either the male or the female sex) is fixed or not. After 7 months of doing NBE, I'm coming to the conclusion that it is not fixed.

Then, again, maybe it is fixed subconsciously, but not fixed at a conscious level. Maybe my conscious feeling or understanding of my gender-split personality is tied to an ongoing process of discovery. I mean, for most of my life I've identified consciously as a male. The idea that people, including myself, have both a male and female sides sounded plausible in the abstract, but I couldn't relate to it directly in my own life. My dabbling in crossdressing and enjoying fantasies of growing breasts was, to me, a sexual fetish, not a reflection of who I was gender-wise.

When first I discovered that I was a crossdreamer (a crossdreamer is a gender-variant person who is aroused by fantasies of being or becoming the opposite sex), and first came out to my wife about my nature, I told her that my gender identity was 70% male and 30% female. Today, I would update that to closer to 50/50. Was it always 50/50 and I simply wasn't aware of it, or has NBE, and the effects of estrogen, caused the shift?

If the latter, wonder if I should expect a further shifting of my gender identity. Could I reach the point where my female side begins to dominate?

All thoughts and points of view are welcome.

Clara

Wow, thats a very interesting and thought provoking question.

If you had asked my this when I was younger, crying in the pillow, praying I would wake up a girl. The answer would have been 100% female.

Now, after a lifetime of exposure T, and perusing male orientated activities, providing for and raising a family that question is a lot harder.

Of course, the female voice has always been there, talking me into cross dressing in private whenever I had the chance, just to keep her quite. So during the last 30 years I would say 80% male, 20% female.

Lately, as my natural T levels have started to drop her voice is starting to get stronger, I don't expect NBE is going to make her any quieter either. I would say right now I am at @ 70% male, 30% female.

I doubt I will ever feel the 100% I felt when I was much younger, but thats probably more to do with no matter what, I still have a family to support, and I still have to project as a male to the outside world. But I do strongly suspect I will see 50/50.

So to your original question, I suspect NBE is making your inner female voice stronger, but it was only going to get stronger anyway.

It has crossed my mind, it would be cheaper to take a supplement to raise my T, and lower my E. That would make her voice a whole lot quieter, but deep down I know thats not who I really am.