[Heather-H]

I've been wondering about other people's experience regarding shifting gender identity, particularly since starting NBE.

I don't know if gender identity (an internal sense of identifying with either the male or the female sex) is fixed or not. After 7 months of doing NBE, I'm coming to the conclusion that it is not fixed.

Then, again, maybe it is fixed subconsciously, but not fixed at a conscious level. Maybe my conscious feeling or understanding of my gender-split personality is tied to an ongoing process of discovery. I mean, for most of my life I've identified consciously as a male. The idea that people, including myself, have both a male and female sides sounded plausible in the abstract, but I couldn't relate to it directly in my own life. My dabbling in crossdressing and enjoying fantasies of growing breasts was, to me, a sexual fetish, not a reflection of who I was gender-wise.

When first I discovered that I was a crossdreamer (a crossdreamer is a gender-variant person who is aroused by fantasies of being or becoming the opposite sex), and first came out to my wife about my nature, I told her that my gender identity was 70% male and 30% female. Today, I would update that to closer to 50/50. Was it always 50/50 and I simply wasn't aware of it, or has NBE, and the effects of estrogen, caused the shift?

If the latter, wonder if I should expect a further shifting of my gender identity. Could I reach the point where my female side begins to dominate?

All thoughts and points of view are welcome.

Clara

Clara, you are always a wise thinker, this thread is no exception. My doctor asked me if I considered myself as being totally female. My honest answer was not 100% of the time. If the scale range was 100% male to 100% female with zero inbetween then I sit between 30-70 on the female side mostly. I do shift to the left at zero when I'm pushed to do male things.

I do think the PM has a lot to do with this shift and certainly brings about more emotion and a greater female perspective. This is something my wife is worried about as she thinks I am always pushing the boundaries when infact it is happening quite naturally.

I keep saying to her that I cannot change who I am but I will always keep in mind our relationship.

Clara, you are such a wonderful human being and a real darling to boot !

I am so delighted you asked the question and long to find out what other girls report.
I sincerely think NBE does not change your gender identity per say but enhances what is already there and for some (myself included) clarifies what you have been struggling to come to terms with.

Your dear friend
Heather X