[Marina Kits]

My favorite theory and the one that seems most logical to me is the one concerning the "hormone wash" in uterine. Because I posses a Y chromosome, I was supposed to get a good blast of testosterone during development but instead I only got a weak dose... you know the rest of the story. The "problem" may have been exacerbated by my family dynamics, culture, inadvertent exposure to estrogen and my own endocrine system. Whatever the cause, I'm sure there IS a cause because my gender mismatch is nothing I would choose for myself and I'd gladly say to hell with it if I could. That last sentiment is pretty consistent among trans persons I've met or spoken to which reinforces my notion that it's NOT a choice and there IS a cause!

I'm also of the persuasion that, "I'm not as I'm supposed to be". I believe God created a perfect world and had things stayed that way, I wouldn't struggle with gender dysphoria. When my time here is done, I'll go to a place where gender is nonexistent and obviously not necessary. My soul will be free of this dissonance.

On a side note, the theory that says we all start out as females, while somewhat similar to what I've said above, doesn't work in my mind because of one small fact. We who have male genitalia also have a Y chromosome that was present the day we were conceived. In other words, we start out, destined to have male or female organs from the moment sperm and egg are united.