29-04-2014, 10:50 PM
and now I cannot close it. I'm still not sure what prompted it, but last friday I started a 1xFG 1xSP and 1xRC 3 x day regimen..and my body is responding in earnest...
There's a part of me that wants this so badly...another part that is terrified of what I'm doing. this is day 5. my nips are stiff, aureoles growing and darkening, I feel more jiggle when I walk, more prominent shape...and the feelings are wonderful. the pink fog is bliss.
And in the back of my mind is the reality of my situation. The world knows me as a man. my family, my coworkers, my friends. My entire reality is built around this simple truth. How can I embrace the female without destroying that?
I've been in deep depression most of my adulthood. I've never dated, I'm very anti social, suffer from severe anxiety. I'm extremely overweight. I can't count the number of times in my life where the thought "I wish I was born a girl" ran through my mind...
But right now, at this moment, chest tingling and feelings of bliss and contentment flow through me.
I was going to stop last night. tension in my malehood that was disconcerting. I don't want to lose my fertility...I am not prepared to risk everything that I currently am...there must be some happy medium I can find...
I'm so conflicted! So confused! Why did I open this box?
There's a part of me that wants this so badly...another part that is terrified of what I'm doing. this is day 5. my nips are stiff, aureoles growing and darkening, I feel more jiggle when I walk, more prominent shape...and the feelings are wonderful. the pink fog is bliss.
And in the back of my mind is the reality of my situation. The world knows me as a man. my family, my coworkers, my friends. My entire reality is built around this simple truth. How can I embrace the female without destroying that?
I've been in deep depression most of my adulthood. I've never dated, I'm very anti social, suffer from severe anxiety. I'm extremely overweight. I can't count the number of times in my life where the thought "I wish I was born a girl" ran through my mind...
But right now, at this moment, chest tingling and feelings of bliss and contentment flow through me.
I was going to stop last night. tension in my malehood that was disconcerting. I don't want to lose my fertility...I am not prepared to risk everything that I currently am...there must be some happy medium I can find...
I'm so conflicted! So confused! Why did I open this box?