[rachel-rache]

blahh... i want to take PM SO badly, but I can't risk my fertility on it or I'd have the rest of my life pinching myself. It's just that I feel like as every day passes I'm getting older and the potential decreases. I can't stop thinking about this. However, in a way this has me feeling like a raging bull, very focused to getting to where I need to be and mowing down any obstacle in my path. In a way this feeling is great because I feel this insurmountable amount of energy to achieve remarkable things in my career, day-to-day tasks, and relationships, all knowing it is getting me closer to the at least partial HRT I want.