[Marina Kits]

Flamesabers, Misty, Sammie,
Thanks for the encouragement. My spirits have been high the last few days but your kind words are still appreciated. The whole gender envy issue I've described is something I'm learning to live with. There are certain things I do that really exacerbate the problem like shopping or attending public events. I just need to be prepared for what will follow when I do those things.

I think I'm already a member at crossdressers but I have apparently forgot my username and or password as I can't log in. I'm not sure I need another place to spend more time online anyway but thanks for mentioning it.

...Thanks especially for the prayers Misty. Whew, life can be tough at most of the times [typo is intended]. Sometimes I just look at my GID with a spitfire attitude, roll up my sleeves and say, "bring it you SOB!" I didn't pick this fight but be danged if it's going to get the best of me. Other times I feel beat down by it but it's then that I'm reminded who loves me and with that, I know I'll make it yet another day. And I'd be remiss if I forgot to say thanks to all of you, past and present, who have encouraged me over the last 13 months. You help keep me going as well. Thank you.

EDIT

You too Clara! (We must have been typing at the same time). I do do a full up once in a while at home and lately, even a couple times with my wife but I don't have any place to go that can do a really good job on me. I'm not that good with makeup yet, have no wig because I decided to grow my own and have a limited selection of clothes that fit me well. I know what you're saying but I'm still applying the brakes a little because if I don't, I'm afraid of what it will lead to. As Misty said, I might be a little farther over on the TG spectrum already and the carnage from a full transition would be too much for me and those I love.