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Flame,

I'm also experiencing a return of the "I want to look like her" feelings when I see attractive women. The idea of crossdressing is related to those feelings (I find myself admiring women's outfits and desiring to emulate the look).

Misty

Huh, that's interesting. Those feeling have never gone away for me despite all that I take. My wife and I went shopping Friday evening looking for clothes that express my feminine side ie. male section but with female flare or female section but tom boyish. I came home depressed, full of envy of the female physique, the wide array of clothing they get to choose from and the fact that I'll probably never be able to look even "pretty good" compared to genetic females. It's always been that way for me and I'm afraid no amount of PM, spearmint, SP or pharma estrogen will overpower that.

Kari,

It's disheartening to hear you're stuck in a rut with GD. Do herbal and pharma estrogens help at all to take the edge off of your depression? If not hormones I hope there is an alternative to help you feel at least a little better.