[Misty0732]

I'm tempted to go back on pm, but then I also feel compelled to continue with this experiment. In a strange way, I think it's too important to get back into shape to give up on it now. I also think I can use these negative emotions for a good cause: refocusing myself to better myself and fulfill my ambitions.

Am I turning to the dark side? I don't know.

Flame,

One of the reasons I'm taking a break is to see if my T levels rise enough to help me get into shape as well. Not for running, but general conditioning. I'm 4 months post-op for my back surgery and have a limited window to ensure a full recovery -- and I need to do as well as I can on the physical therapy and conditioning exercises over the next few months. The healing and performance enhancing attributes of T are well documented.

But like you I am concerned about losing the positive (particularly mental) benefits of PM.

Dark side? Could be. It's interesting to me that in taking this break I feel more like a woman experimenting with T than a man going off HRT. That's telling in and of itself.

I'm only 4 days into my break now and notice nothing different as of yet...

Misty