(27-03-2014, 01:14 PM)flamesabers Wrote: Clara,
Are you back to taking your regular pm doses?
No, yesterday I took a low dose 500 mg in the morning, but was already in bed when I realized that I didn't take my evening dose and decided to skip it.
This morning my ambivalence was even more apparent, so I elected to go off PM for awhile. I don't understand where this indifference is coming from. It's kind like when I lost my desire to view porn. It just vanished.
(27-03-2014, 01:14 PM)flamesabers Wrote: What balance are you seeking exactly?
By balance, I mean a state of mind and gender related behaviors that are reliably steady and predictable. Up until before my aforementioned illness, I was rapidly progressing along a path to develop my feminine persona. I moved from simple NBE for mental calmness, to NBE for breast development, to full body hair removal, to accumulating a woman's wardrobe, to donning wigs and makeup, to risking anonymity, to seriously considering TG friendly public outings, to contemplating professional therapy.... Most of this was not anticipated at the beginning of my cross gender awakening less than a year ago, and seems out of character for me when put into historical context. Now, I feel a need to put on the brakes and get back to a practical reality, knowing full well that I'm overreacting to an overreaction.
Clara (sigh)