[Samantha Rogers]

Clara, I think what you are feeling is natural and to be expected. You swung a long way from where you were, and quickly. It only stands to reason that a lifetime of habitual male feelings, behaviors, mechanisms and thoughts will not just fade away and will rather struggle to reassert themselves. I would guess most of us have days more one than another. My takeaway from th AV essay, was that the trick is trying to find the balance for each individual that stabilizes the swinging pendulum in a position that allows sufficient satisfaction to both parts.
I think that the reason so many CDs feel shame after dressing is that they have given sufficient expression to the femme side to alleviate the anxiety only to find the male side crashing back into the void screaming "WTF have you done?)
But the chem side has an influence too. I have been off SP for two weeks now with no strong AA other than a cup or two of Spearmint tea. I have a Spearmint in capsule form coming, but in the meantime, I have definitely felt a lessening of the "pink fog" during this time. Your reduced dose of PM may be doing the same to you.
Listen to your body...find the balance. Right?