17-02-2014, 08:23 PM
So, if I understand what you and this article are saying Jessica, we may be doing and "experiencing" things BECAUSE, in our minds, we want to do and experience all things feminine, correct? This might rub some people here the wrong way but I think I've seen hundreds of examples of this in the year I've been frequenting this forum. A classic example that makes me roll my eyes every time is, "I've been taking PM for 3 DAYS and... and... and... and my FINGERNAILS are now stronger" Really? Last time I looked, my fingernails took months to grow out from their point of making to the clipping edge. Furthermore, do women really have stronger fingernails? Mine are pretty tough, I even use them as screwdrivers in a pinch. Perhaps many more of us are guilty of trying a little too hard to portray feminine attributes, vocabulary and emotional responses. I'm not going to name specifics because I will surely offend some if not most by doing so.
I myself find the suggestions of this article quite confusing along with the discussions about brain rewiring. I am a little fearful that I might be doing things and "seeing" things in myself because I WANT them to be there but for that reason, I am very guarded against expressing those subjective antics. Like Clara, I have no doubt that I have indeed suppressed my male sex drive and am no long compelled to look at porn or masturbate any more (3 months free with virtually no effort to prove it). I have certainly witnessed SOME reshaping of my chest and I find myself much less irritable than before NBE. Aside from that, any changes I think I see like being more emotional, softer skin, weaker muscles, facial changes, willingness to hug, words I use, political persuasion, responses to situations or other behaviors ...or stronger nails, remain in the "I'm not so sure" category and therefore, I try to keep pretty close wraps on all of them for fear of doing what the article Jessica mentioned suggests.
In light of this topic, I must say, I'm a little bit proud of myself for using a selfie as my avatar (not implying anything negative for those of you who use a feminine avatar). I am who I am. I don't feel or try to act feminine but I don't feel or try to act masculine either. It would actually be nice to feel one way or the other but such is my plight.
I myself find the suggestions of this article quite confusing along with the discussions about brain rewiring. I am a little fearful that I might be doing things and "seeing" things in myself because I WANT them to be there but for that reason, I am very guarded against expressing those subjective antics. Like Clara, I have no doubt that I have indeed suppressed my male sex drive and am no long compelled to look at porn or masturbate any more (3 months free with virtually no effort to prove it). I have certainly witnessed SOME reshaping of my chest and I find myself much less irritable than before NBE. Aside from that, any changes I think I see like being more emotional, softer skin, weaker muscles, facial changes, willingness to hug, words I use, political persuasion, responses to situations or other behaviors ...or stronger nails, remain in the "I'm not so sure" category and therefore, I try to keep pretty close wraps on all of them for fear of doing what the article Jessica mentioned suggests.
In light of this topic, I must say, I'm a little bit proud of myself for using a selfie as my avatar (not implying anything negative for those of you who use a feminine avatar). I am who I am. I don't feel or try to act feminine but I don't feel or try to act masculine either. It would actually be nice to feel one way or the other but such is my plight.