[Scotti]

But, I have to say that my cross dressing today has NOTHING to do with eroticism or satisfying a sexual need. It is purely an expression of my wanting to feel feminine. There's no longer a need to achieve orgasm at the conclusion of a cross dressing session. In the past, if I cross dressed, the moment after orgasm, I shed the bra, panties, and hose as quickly as I could, and wondered what in the world I was thinking of. That was not my female side reacting. It was my male side retaking control and disavowing the existence of my female identity

Clara

I think I'm at an in between stage of what you describe above. While cross dressing satisfies my need to feel feminine, it always still seems to turn sexual as I take my fantasy further. But like you, once orgasm is achieved it all disappears. However, this could also be due to my limited window of opportunity that I have for enjoying myself in this manner...