18-04-2013, 11:51 AM
Hi! I'm brand new to this forum and would appreciate any help and advice you would be able to give me.
Since I was a little boy I have had dreams of being female and have always had that uncomfortable feeling that there was something not quite right about who I was. I didn't necessarily feel that I was in the wrong body, more that I actually was a woman, but one that somehow got encased in the wrong shell.
Through time I occasionally dallied with cross-dressing, attempts that usually ended in a degree of guilt. As a heterosexual I have always had these weird feelings whenever I saw a beautiful girl in a pretty dress that not only was I sexually attracted to her, but also I in a very real sense wanted to actually be her and be in that gorgeous dress. These conflicting feelings are probably in part responsible for my lack of success in having a meaningful close relationship with a women, even though I have always felt comfortable in the company of women and have many as good friends.
I have thought many times of how I could approach this. Surgery seemed a drastic solution and I have felt nervous about approaching the medical profession anyway. One recent avenue I've found is going onto Second Life where I can experiment with who I think I am and what I think the woman inside me looks like. Unsurprisingly perhaps, she looks gorgeous (as you can see from my avatar)! It may only be a role-playing game but it has given me huge confidence to take a further step.
Googling around on the subject I came across mention of PM. I thought that such a substance couldn't possibly be available effectively across the counter and really work, but the testimonials I've found on this forum seem to suggest otherwise.
Anyway, to cut a long story short, and with much excited trepidation, I've decided to take the plunge and start taking a combined dose of PM and Saw Palmetto. I don't think I'm looking for anything like full feminization - what I really want is just a feeling that part of me is 100% female. If I get a couple of little boobies as well, that would be an added bonus! The SP has arrived and the PM is on its way. A couple of questions therefore:
1 What's the best dose to start on for both of these?
2 Given that I know everyone reacts differently, what are likely to be the first signs I get that something is working. I think the thing I'm most looking forward to is the general sense of well-being that people seem to report. That would be wonderful
Thanks for reading this far - hopefully I'll be able to give you updates as I proceed.
Rachel
xxx
Since I was a little boy I have had dreams of being female and have always had that uncomfortable feeling that there was something not quite right about who I was. I didn't necessarily feel that I was in the wrong body, more that I actually was a woman, but one that somehow got encased in the wrong shell.
Through time I occasionally dallied with cross-dressing, attempts that usually ended in a degree of guilt. As a heterosexual I have always had these weird feelings whenever I saw a beautiful girl in a pretty dress that not only was I sexually attracted to her, but also I in a very real sense wanted to actually be her and be in that gorgeous dress. These conflicting feelings are probably in part responsible for my lack of success in having a meaningful close relationship with a women, even though I have always felt comfortable in the company of women and have many as good friends.
I have thought many times of how I could approach this. Surgery seemed a drastic solution and I have felt nervous about approaching the medical profession anyway. One recent avenue I've found is going onto Second Life where I can experiment with who I think I am and what I think the woman inside me looks like. Unsurprisingly perhaps, she looks gorgeous (as you can see from my avatar)! It may only be a role-playing game but it has given me huge confidence to take a further step.
Googling around on the subject I came across mention of PM. I thought that such a substance couldn't possibly be available effectively across the counter and really work, but the testimonials I've found on this forum seem to suggest otherwise.
Anyway, to cut a long story short, and with much excited trepidation, I've decided to take the plunge and start taking a combined dose of PM and Saw Palmetto. I don't think I'm looking for anything like full feminization - what I really want is just a feeling that part of me is 100% female. If I get a couple of little boobies as well, that would be an added bonus! The SP has arrived and the PM is on its way. A couple of questions therefore:
1 What's the best dose to start on for both of these?
2 Given that I know everyone reacts differently, what are likely to be the first signs I get that something is working. I think the thing I'm most looking forward to is the general sense of well-being that people seem to report. That would be wonderful
Thanks for reading this far - hopefully I'll be able to give you updates as I proceed.
Rachel
xxx
