hello all

ive been taking pure pm 350mg capsules 2 in the morning 2 at night. first week soreness, later on hardness. growing in a short period of time. I have issues with life. which doesn't make me think twice about consuming pm in big or small amounts. later on when people start to notice? what will I say? ill just have to wing it..
my personal beliefs effect my life so much. example -reincarnation.. why the !@#% would god let me be born the wrong gender.