I do think I should explain myself and why I'm here.
I grew up in a disfunctional family, was the youngest of 4 and mum desperately wanted another daughter so I became her. I grew up female and even though I knew I had a willy I was a girl and that was absolutely normal for me. Then teenage puberty hit in and went on a rebellion and chose to do things and make choices that broke mums heart. But I was good at being ....not nice. Sorry don't know how to explain myself without compromise.
Anyway, that's me, I was from birth a girl and treated as one until I wasnt. I even had to be examined at the airport in the late 60s as my passport said male but I was in a skirt and very long hair and quite pretty then, cried so much at being examined, well had a tantrum so huge the flight was delayed as i ran and it took them a while to find me. Alright this was a military flight from a military base, RAF Brize Norton so they didn't have cameras and surveillance to find where a little girl could possibly hide. Very small people can hide in absurdy small places, no am not a dwarf just a bit small-ish. Mum has a lot to answer for.
But that's Drew, grew up female but rebelled when puberty hit in and did everything I possibly could to be alpha and extreme military to upset mum as much as I could and did. But! IDK glad to have found this site the support and gold mine of information I wish we would have had Internet and understanding of gender much earlier then I would have never had to become male. We could have blocked T before puberty but who knew that was possible then.
Carrying on. I upset the flight it was over an hour delayed because they couldnt find the privelaged little high officers bitch daughter that ran but eventually they got me.
I was positioned in a seat not with my brother and sister but in the middle seat between 2 red headed teenage identical twins who I was scared of, thought they would be mean to me or beat me up for delaying the flight. I was still upset and crying when they finally got me on the plane those sort of gasping for breath sob's and scared about my seating. I curled up and slept for the 6 hour flight was exhausted but my sister told me the twins gently lifted my head to place a cushion and put a blanket over me and took particular care and attention and wow, they scared me so much but were attentive and caring. This was a life lesson for me, I was extremely upset, scared, violated and afraid but those I perceved to be a threat were really protective. My sister across the aisle thanked them for being so attentive. I didn't know, but when I found out in the car afterward on the way to the mountain how much the people who frightened me but cared for me and I didn't get the chance to thank them I punched my big sister in the face. Then she absolutely beat the crap out of me that dad had to stop the car and tear us apart as I was getting seriously beaten from big sis.
Thanks Drew for sharing.
Its wonderful to know the more of you.
Love you in either gender.
Bobbi
(20-10-2021, 05:04 PM)Happyme Wrote: [ -> ]Thanks Drew for sharing.
Its wonderful to know the more of you.
Love you in either gender.
Bobbi
oh is a lot more Bobbi, my big sister often beat the crap out of me for just being me but she loved me
As a little sister was loved but hated me as a brother we still don't talk after over 30 years of turmoil but I don't care. The family I created matters more than the one I was born into.
Hi Drew,
Another thanks for sharing about you!
My mother wanted a girl. I was a boy, but I think that my inner girl was formed when I was in the womb. Yes, I was in a very dysfunctional family. As a child, I hated my life and wished that I was born a girl. I was expected to be manly and I tried so hard to fill that role. I would often have dreams at night that I was a girl. I hid all of it, tried to live what everyone wanted and hated myself for almost 6 decades. I finally accept myself. My inner self is all woman, and I am trying to feminize my body.
Kay
Hi Drew, we are a lot alike. I developed gynocomastia as a teenager and my mother was absolutely delighted. She constantly praised my feminine development and bought me all sorts of lovely things to wear. By age 18 I was a full 38C cup and we were wearing the same bras. We often went out as mother and daughter. I had a sister who had no interest in being a woman, so my mother concentrated on making me one- which I loved. I spent most of my adulthood in male mode but binding my breasts for work. Finally realized I looked more female that male and went over to the other side. I LOVE being a woman and the world accepts me as one. Thanks Mother.
(26-10-2021, 09:49 PM)Connie Wrote: [ -> ]Hi Drew, we are a lot alike. I developed gynocomastia as a teenager and my mother was absolutely delighted. She constantly praised my feminine development and bought me all sorts of lovely things to wear. By age 18 I was a full 38C cup and we were wearing the same bras. We often went out as mother and daughter. I had a sister who had no interest in being a woman, so my mother concentrated on making me one- which I loved. I spent most of my adulthood in male mode but binding my breasts for work. Finally realized I looked more female that male and went over to the other side. I LOVE being a woman and the world accepts me as one. Thanks Mother.
Hi Connie,
That is so awesome! I am happy for you. Stories like ours warm my heart!
Kay
(27-10-2021, 12:06 AM)Kay Wrote: [ -> ]
(26-10-2021, 09:49 PM)Connie Wrote: [ -> ]Hi Drew, we are a lot alike. I developed gynocomastia as a teenager and my mother was absolutely delighted. She constantly praised my feminine development and bought me all sorts of lovely things to wear. By age 18 I was a full 38C cup and we were wearing the same bras. We often went out as mother and daughter. I had a sister who had no interest in being a woman, so my mother concentrated on making me one- which I loved. I spent most of my adulthood in male mode but binding my breasts for work. Finally realized I looked more female that male and went over to the other side. I LOVE being a woman and the world accepts me as one. Thanks Mother.
Hi Connie,
That is so awesome! I am happy for you. Stories like ours warm my heart!
Kay
I agree, think for most this isn't a fetishism but something that we were born with. The old excuse "I was born in the wrong body" really makes me cringe whenever I hear that. We were born who we are it's not the body that matters but the person you are inside.
We can correct the body to a certain extent to fit better in with the person we feel we have always been.
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I agree, think for most this isn't a fetishism but something that we were born with. The old excuse "I was born in the wrong body" really makes me cringe whenever I hear that. We were born who we are it's not the body that matters but the person you are inside.
We can correct the body to a certain extent to fit better in with the person we feel we have always been.
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Thank you Drew, very true!!
yes girls. I agree as well.