14-08-2013, 02:11 PM
Hi all,
Just wanted to say hi to everyone here. I am a new member on the forum (2-3 weeks now). I know there is an "introduce yourself" section, but I felt more comfortable posting in this section because I am a biological male.
I am 42 yrs old and come from Canada. I'm 6' and weigh 200 lbs, in pretty good shape overall, but could lose about 15 lbs or so.
I have been reading this form quite a bit lately, and let me tell you something...I have a feeling that things are about to change drastically in my life...I am not sure where this will all lead, but I am a bit afraid (well, quite a bit really). In the past, I have fantasized about having breasts...but never really more than that. I more often than not wear women's underwear. At first (when I was a teen and up until a few years ago), it was a sexual thing, it made me feel hot and excited. For the last few years, it has become more of a happy, secure, content feeling, you know, "comfortable" and still sexy but in a different way. I have tried fully dressing with the forms and all that, but meh, I didn't really catch on to that much. Just the undergarments are what do it for me, but like I said, it's not a sexual thing anymore, it feels right.
Ever since coming on this forum, there have been psychological changes in me, its difficult to explain. I have rediscovered that idea of growing breasts, and the more I think about it, the more it seems to feel right. I bought a Noogleberry and have been using this for the past few weeks, and I can see some changes (minor) already, mostly in extra tissue around my breasts and general firmness in that area. The whole growing breasts idea seems to be bringing about a cradling, secure, naturing, general well-being feeling inside of me. I have decided to start using PM, so I ordered some 500mg capsules last Friday. Haven't received them yet, but counting the days hehe.
Not sure where I'm going with this, so please bear with me. The thought of messing with my body on a hormonal level scares me but the overall benefits (from what I've read) seem to outweigh the risks, so I'm gonna do it. Tired of being "unhappy" and depressed, anxious etc...Life only happens once and this whole process so far has made me feel wonderful (haven't even started PM yet). I might have found the major problem that has made me unhappy for the past 3-4 years, repressing my female side.
But yeah, it's incredible what just the "thought" of the process and the end results (if there is such a thing as "end" results cuz its an ongoing process) of breasts and overall feelings of well being (brain rewiring) has done to me in the last 3 weeks. I am more relaxed, think more clearly, am more calm and feel good. Scary to think what taking PM will do to my entire psychological makeup. The breasts are going to be wonderful as well.
Like I said, I wear female undergarments, and sleepwear at times, but aside from that, I have no intention of fully transitioning or "coming out". I will take precautions to keep it for myself if thats at all possible. I'm at the fear of societal reaction stage and don't think I am brave enough to ever flaunt myself in public, especially in a little community like where I live (5000 people). The only way I could do that is by moving to a big city, and starting anew, but I don't think I will get that drastic. Not saying that I wouldnt consider it if it became necessary, but would rather not. That's okay and I've accepted that, I think. It's for my private self and the way I feel inside. I need to release the female side of myself, and hopefully achieve a good balance as an androgenous person. I love women, and sex with women, and I can't see that changing, but my feminine side seems to be raging inside to be acknowledged and embraced too. I feel like an emerging butterfly sortof hehe.
Am I crazy? Does this make any sense to anyone?
Please, any comments would be welcome. Once again, thanks for this forum and I hope to get involved a lot more.
SS xx
Just wanted to say hi to everyone here. I am a new member on the forum (2-3 weeks now). I know there is an "introduce yourself" section, but I felt more comfortable posting in this section because I am a biological male.
I am 42 yrs old and come from Canada. I'm 6' and weigh 200 lbs, in pretty good shape overall, but could lose about 15 lbs or so.
I have been reading this form quite a bit lately, and let me tell you something...I have a feeling that things are about to change drastically in my life...I am not sure where this will all lead, but I am a bit afraid (well, quite a bit really). In the past, I have fantasized about having breasts...but never really more than that. I more often than not wear women's underwear. At first (when I was a teen and up until a few years ago), it was a sexual thing, it made me feel hot and excited. For the last few years, it has become more of a happy, secure, content feeling, you know, "comfortable" and still sexy but in a different way. I have tried fully dressing with the forms and all that, but meh, I didn't really catch on to that much. Just the undergarments are what do it for me, but like I said, it's not a sexual thing anymore, it feels right.
Ever since coming on this forum, there have been psychological changes in me, its difficult to explain. I have rediscovered that idea of growing breasts, and the more I think about it, the more it seems to feel right. I bought a Noogleberry and have been using this for the past few weeks, and I can see some changes (minor) already, mostly in extra tissue around my breasts and general firmness in that area. The whole growing breasts idea seems to be bringing about a cradling, secure, naturing, general well-being feeling inside of me. I have decided to start using PM, so I ordered some 500mg capsules last Friday. Haven't received them yet, but counting the days hehe.
Not sure where I'm going with this, so please bear with me. The thought of messing with my body on a hormonal level scares me but the overall benefits (from what I've read) seem to outweigh the risks, so I'm gonna do it. Tired of being "unhappy" and depressed, anxious etc...Life only happens once and this whole process so far has made me feel wonderful (haven't even started PM yet). I might have found the major problem that has made me unhappy for the past 3-4 years, repressing my female side.
But yeah, it's incredible what just the "thought" of the process and the end results (if there is such a thing as "end" results cuz its an ongoing process) of breasts and overall feelings of well being (brain rewiring) has done to me in the last 3 weeks. I am more relaxed, think more clearly, am more calm and feel good. Scary to think what taking PM will do to my entire psychological makeup. The breasts are going to be wonderful as well.
Like I said, I wear female undergarments, and sleepwear at times, but aside from that, I have no intention of fully transitioning or "coming out". I will take precautions to keep it for myself if thats at all possible. I'm at the fear of societal reaction stage and don't think I am brave enough to ever flaunt myself in public, especially in a little community like where I live (5000 people). The only way I could do that is by moving to a big city, and starting anew, but I don't think I will get that drastic. Not saying that I wouldnt consider it if it became necessary, but would rather not. That's okay and I've accepted that, I think. It's for my private self and the way I feel inside. I need to release the female side of myself, and hopefully achieve a good balance as an androgenous person. I love women, and sex with women, and I can't see that changing, but my feminine side seems to be raging inside to be acknowledged and embraced too. I feel like an emerging butterfly sortof hehe.
Am I crazy? Does this make any sense to anyone?
Please, any comments would be welcome. Once again, thanks for this forum and I hope to get involved a lot more.
SS xx
