05-12-2022, 11:05 PM
About 3 months ago I looked in the mirror and had a serious WTF moment. Looking at myself, my nipples were getting sore and had become obvious through all my shirts as they perched upon my breasts. What the hell am I doing?
3 months ago, I made the 'final' decision to stop all herbs, pumping, panties, bras, trans porn, and everything related. I have been doing great in my life, hitting the gym losing about 15lbs plus and building back some muscle. Without the herbs, and constricting underwear, I feel T level is through the roof, I feel energetic, sharp and full of energy. To my wife's delight, my sex drive has come back with a vengeance, and my chest and nipples haven't changed and are still a huge turn-on. I should be happy just how I am right?
Yesterday, I had the house to myself and was just putting clothes away. My wife's panties were on top and I thought it would be fun to wear panties while I do a little housework for old times sake. The next thing I know I was sitting back on the couch rubbing my chest, pinching and feeling my nipples which quickly became hard and swollen. Just pinching and rolling them made me cum a little without even touching down below. I immediately quit, got dressed and told myself I was done (again) and I can't go down this path again. Knowing myself, I am easily addicted to many things and I know once start stopping again is difficult. With me, it's all or nothing.
Driving home today today, without even realizing it, I was touching my chest and feeling my nipples under my shirt. My mind had been obsessed with getting home and going back to my old breast pumping routine. Thinking about covering my chest in herbs/PM lotions and noogling for a while before and breaking out the spectra pump to push me over the edge. It's strange how badly I miss the heaviness of my pumped breasts and thick engorged nipples that the spectra pump gives me. Just thinking about it has had me in a frenzy.
Now, I sit here writing this and passing time on this site with my chest covered with PM cream and my breasts starting to swell and throb from the forceful suction of the large cups (post pump pic below). Soon I will feel the long awaited pleasure from my nipples being systematically milked by the spectra. I have missed my NBE routine so bad... Perhaps this time I won't stop when I feel my nipples getting sore. I have always quit when I start to feel a mass building below my nipples. What if I don't stop this time? I already have 'tits' that are obvious, lol who cares if they get bigger? Part of me wants this so bad, yet the "logical male" in me is screaming no. As you can tell, I'm just confused and rambling. Thanks for listening.
3 months ago, I made the 'final' decision to stop all herbs, pumping, panties, bras, trans porn, and everything related. I have been doing great in my life, hitting the gym losing about 15lbs plus and building back some muscle. Without the herbs, and constricting underwear, I feel T level is through the roof, I feel energetic, sharp and full of energy. To my wife's delight, my sex drive has come back with a vengeance, and my chest and nipples haven't changed and are still a huge turn-on. I should be happy just how I am right?
Yesterday, I had the house to myself and was just putting clothes away. My wife's panties were on top and I thought it would be fun to wear panties while I do a little housework for old times sake. The next thing I know I was sitting back on the couch rubbing my chest, pinching and feeling my nipples which quickly became hard and swollen. Just pinching and rolling them made me cum a little without even touching down below. I immediately quit, got dressed and told myself I was done (again) and I can't go down this path again. Knowing myself, I am easily addicted to many things and I know once start stopping again is difficult. With me, it's all or nothing.
Driving home today today, without even realizing it, I was touching my chest and feeling my nipples under my shirt. My mind had been obsessed with getting home and going back to my old breast pumping routine. Thinking about covering my chest in herbs/PM lotions and noogling for a while before and breaking out the spectra pump to push me over the edge. It's strange how badly I miss the heaviness of my pumped breasts and thick engorged nipples that the spectra pump gives me. Just thinking about it has had me in a frenzy.
Now, I sit here writing this and passing time on this site with my chest covered with PM cream and my breasts starting to swell and throb from the forceful suction of the large cups (post pump pic below). Soon I will feel the long awaited pleasure from my nipples being systematically milked by the spectra. I have missed my NBE routine so bad... Perhaps this time I won't stop when I feel my nipples getting sore. I have always quit when I start to feel a mass building below my nipples. What if I don't stop this time? I already have 'tits' that are obvious, lol who cares if they get bigger? Part of me wants this so bad, yet the "logical male" in me is screaming no. As you can tell, I'm just confused and rambling. Thanks for listening.