[MeganJ]

From a remark made by aria many moons ago
I have been wondering whether complete stealth is safe health wise 

This all in the head business and bottling it up could be lethal in some cases and detrimental in many

I am in the process of telling two close friends this week or even tomorrow I am trans 

Trans what , no idea but sure as hell I am trans, I, will state I think I am

either

B-gender, gender fluid, ts in denial, but certainly TRANSGENDERED,

Not proud of it, but importantly now, neither am I ashamed, HUGE step forward,

Already I can feel, lighter, more out of shackles, so there is immense cathartic value there

Going to back to aria, how much of her heart problems could have been attributed to a 20/30 year bottle up ?

Whichever way I look at it, fighting a Balance for the next 20 years in complete stealth is not going to happen, someone has to know,

Julie's wings are flapping, but she is still firmly rooted on the male branch, hopefully



But expression now needs to happen 

That has already happened this week with wearing female shirts at work, discreet of course, 
That is soothing and cathartic but as dear Kate says, the punch only lasts so long, 

Forms of expression, ummm 
We are thinking , Julie going to a hotel and being full Julie on her own so we both can see what she looks like
(wife not Katie x)

Tg nights out with the Two close friends so Julie can be in a safe environment, mind you Julie's a tough bitch if anything happened,
But you know what I mean

It would be amazing if Julie could enjoy a meal out, even in a close friend environment at home

I monitor my blood pressure very closely and always been good, which is surprising . but its more queting the peaks and troughs or intensity, ie mental heath stress and we all know stress is a serious killer,

Any thoughts on all this ?


Julie
x

anticipating half of Dorothy Perkins to arrive Monday, eeek


Her dream would be a weekend away full with the wife , but she has to pass first, and cannot quite see that happining

Hi Julie,

I think you have to do what is right to your own circumstances, for me thats doing things in my own time when I feel ready.  I have way fewer qualms about telling people now than I did even a few months ago, I came straight out to the skin consultant for my laser last week (although I guess not many men want their facial hair lasered off!) but yes the guilt about being and feeling this way is very much gone.  I still worry about how people will react but I dont care to much about it, it just feels soooo good right now. If I had known how right it feels I would have done it years ago - but better late than never! 

I dont think there are any health issues from remaining in stealth, its way unhealthier to try and deny things than to accept them and take steps to address things. For me the fact I am doing something to address how I have felt for ages is the main thing and how I feel is waaay more important than how I look.  It would have been far worse to have not done anything healthwise - l am way healthier than I have been for about 20 years in terms of diet, drinking and exercise.  

For me it sounds like you need to have your release every so often, but the problem then is that you might realise you just want more! Its a difficult thing to balance but I wouldnt worry about how you might feel in a few years time just enjoy the present!

Megan