[julieTG]

From a remark made by aria many moons ago
I have been wondering whether complete stealth is safe health wise 

This all in the head business and bottling it up could be lethal in some cases and detrimental in many

I am in the process of telling two close friends this week or even tomorrow I am trans 

Trans what , no idea but sure as hell I am trans, I, will state I think I am

either

B-gender, gender fluid, ts in denial, but certainly TRANSGENDERED,

Not proud of it, but importantly now, neither am I ashamed, HUGE step forward,

Already I can feel, lighter, more out of shackles, so there is immense cathartic value there

Going to back to aria, how much of her heart problems could have been attributed to a 20/30 year bottle up ?

Whichever way I look at it, fighting a Balance for the next 20 years in complete stealth is not going to happen, someone has to know,

Julie's wings are flapping, but she is still firmly rooted on the male branch, hopefully



But expression now needs to happen 

That has already happened this week with wearing female shirts at work, discreet of course, 
That is soothing and cathartic but as dear Kate says, the punch only lasts so long, 

Forms of expression, ummm 
We are thinking , Julie going to a hotel and being full Julie on her own so we both can see what she looks like
(wife not Katie x)

Tg nights out with the Two close friends so Julie can be in a safe environment, mind you Julie's a tough bitch if anything happened,
But you know what I mean

It would be amazing if Julie could enjoy a meal out, even in a close friend environment at home

I monitor my blood pressure very closely and always been good, which is surprising . but its more queting the peaks and troughs or intensity, ie mental heath stress and we all know stress is a serious killer,

Any thoughts on all this ?


Julie
x

anticipating half of Dorothy Perkins to arrive Monday, eeek


Her dream would be a weekend away full with the wife , but she has to pass first, and cannot quite see that happining