25-11-2016, 07:21 PM
As I move forward at a snails pace towards my final destination ( wherever that may turn out to be ) I thought I would write a few things down whilst I ponder things in my tiny little mind.
Tonight, I am going to a facilitator workshop. Where I hope to pick up some tools on how to run a transgender ( or LGBT ) support group, Will I ever use those tools ? That is up in the air. However if nothing else it will be an enrichment to my personal self. These tools may eventually come in use when or if I decide to pull the plug on my male existence. I am sure that I will have lots of explaining to do, to many people in the factory were I work.
Although Typically, I class my self as a loner. I have had a fairly close group of friends as I grew up, even made some new friends when I came to Canada. But, in the last few years I feel myself withdrawing from those friends, I felt I was loosing things in common. I felt ( and still feel ) that I am hiding away my true self, but also realized that chances are most people would not understand my feelings or what I am even going through. So, my friends have dropped off as I fail to keep in touch with them, and I see them very rarely. This is obviously a conscious decision on my part, when or if I finally pull the plug I will have less external baggage to be concerned about.
As obvious as it may seem, the people I mostly call friends presently are full time transgender females, so that alone should point towards my present line of thinking.
The members of this site are pretty damn AWESOME, the support that members have for each other is outstanding. We are obviously a small close group with similar wants / needs / worries. For all the online communities I have ever signed up for, this is the longest I have ever stayed active, that says a lot.
Like a few of us, my wife although supportive has very mixed feelings about the whole thing. Bless her though, she is trying her hardest. She wants to try and make this work out, but is also concerned for the future. She has even started to go to a local support group for spouses. Unfortunately it has only just started, and not many other people are actually involved as yet.
I hope this post does not sound like a swan call, it isn't. I intend to be around for a lot longer yet.
Tonight, I am going to a facilitator workshop. Where I hope to pick up some tools on how to run a transgender ( or LGBT ) support group, Will I ever use those tools ? That is up in the air. However if nothing else it will be an enrichment to my personal self. These tools may eventually come in use when or if I decide to pull the plug on my male existence. I am sure that I will have lots of explaining to do, to many people in the factory were I work.
Although Typically, I class my self as a loner. I have had a fairly close group of friends as I grew up, even made some new friends when I came to Canada. But, in the last few years I feel myself withdrawing from those friends, I felt I was loosing things in common. I felt ( and still feel ) that I am hiding away my true self, but also realized that chances are most people would not understand my feelings or what I am even going through. So, my friends have dropped off as I fail to keep in touch with them, and I see them very rarely. This is obviously a conscious decision on my part, when or if I finally pull the plug I will have less external baggage to be concerned about.
As obvious as it may seem, the people I mostly call friends presently are full time transgender females, so that alone should point towards my present line of thinking.
The members of this site are pretty damn AWESOME, the support that members have for each other is outstanding. We are obviously a small close group with similar wants / needs / worries. For all the online communities I have ever signed up for, this is the longest I have ever stayed active, that says a lot.
Like a few of us, my wife although supportive has very mixed feelings about the whole thing. Bless her though, she is trying her hardest. She wants to try and make this work out, but is also concerned for the future. She has even started to go to a local support group for spouses. Unfortunately it has only just started, and not many other people are actually involved as yet.
I hope this post does not sound like a swan call, it isn't. I intend to be around for a lot longer yet.
. too many times, if you take the baggage with you, it only gets in the way.
