10-04-2017, 08:59 PM
Ok it's been a while since I've updated, so lots has occured!
I've been seeing the therapist weekly, lots of questions have come out regarding my upbringing, and that resulted in a heart to heart conversation with mom recently. I was supposed to be a twin, but she miscarried my sibling- I always wondered if somehow a part of my siblings is part of me and if so was that a girl? She did not know the gender of the infant she lost. So still a mystery there. Step forward a few years to Halloween when I was 8 or 9. That year she dressed me up as a girl with a wig and a dress and pushed me and my little brother out the door for the Saturday of tricks and treats. Needless to say I wanted out of my neighborhood asap before any of my friends recognized me. Not many people caught on that I wasn't a girl ....and this surprised me. When someone did recognize that I was a boy, they said "oh....." and then I was embarrassed again. Mom did not remember doing this to me and I know it wasn't my idea.
Speed forward to those wonderful years of being a teen in puberty.....I had one of the biggest closets in the house in my room, so mom had one of those vinyl hanging wardrobes in it- with her wedding dress, and a bunch of dresses from the early 60s and late 50s stored there. And I began to wear them. After school everyday I would have almost 2 hours before anyone else came home, so it was almost a daily routine to grab a bra and panties from my mom's drawer, throw on her old wig, and put on one of the dresses and then sit at my desk and do my homework. If i was off school for a whole day then the wedding dress came Out! And with the exception of her breasts and ass, we were both the same size, so everything fit pretty well
Anyways....so I'm out to my mom now and I haven't talked to her since that day last week. And my therapist was estatic that I had this conversation with her, as it cleared up questions regarding my youth.
Jump forward to current,
Last week I moved up to 1500 mg of PM per day along with the White Peony, Biotin and Glucosamine I'm taking for my arthritic knees. I've noticed more fullness on the top of my breasts. BUT.....I opened a new bottle of White Peony extract , and began to have allergic reactions to it- I had no such problem with the first bottle. So I haven't been taking that for a week. I'm going to open up a new bottle and see if that bothers me or not.
Here are a few pics from today.
No change in my measurements except my weight has been as low as 178, and as high as 181- which is today grrrr! But now that the weather is breaking I'll be able to be more active outside again- my goal is to get down to 170
I've been seeing the therapist weekly, lots of questions have come out regarding my upbringing, and that resulted in a heart to heart conversation with mom recently. I was supposed to be a twin, but she miscarried my sibling- I always wondered if somehow a part of my siblings is part of me and if so was that a girl? She did not know the gender of the infant she lost. So still a mystery there. Step forward a few years to Halloween when I was 8 or 9. That year she dressed me up as a girl with a wig and a dress and pushed me and my little brother out the door for the Saturday of tricks and treats. Needless to say I wanted out of my neighborhood asap before any of my friends recognized me. Not many people caught on that I wasn't a girl ....and this surprised me. When someone did recognize that I was a boy, they said "oh....." and then I was embarrassed again. Mom did not remember doing this to me and I know it wasn't my idea.
Speed forward to those wonderful years of being a teen in puberty.....I had one of the biggest closets in the house in my room, so mom had one of those vinyl hanging wardrobes in it- with her wedding dress, and a bunch of dresses from the early 60s and late 50s stored there. And I began to wear them. After school everyday I would have almost 2 hours before anyone else came home, so it was almost a daily routine to grab a bra and panties from my mom's drawer, throw on her old wig, and put on one of the dresses and then sit at my desk and do my homework. If i was off school for a whole day then the wedding dress came Out! And with the exception of her breasts and ass, we were both the same size, so everything fit pretty well
Anyways....so I'm out to my mom now and I haven't talked to her since that day last week. And my therapist was estatic that I had this conversation with her, as it cleared up questions regarding my youth.
Jump forward to current,
Last week I moved up to 1500 mg of PM per day along with the White Peony, Biotin and Glucosamine I'm taking for my arthritic knees. I've noticed more fullness on the top of my breasts. BUT.....I opened a new bottle of White Peony extract , and began to have allergic reactions to it- I had no such problem with the first bottle. So I haven't been taking that for a week. I'm going to open up a new bottle and see if that bothers me or not.
Here are a few pics from today.
No change in my measurements except my weight has been as low as 178, and as high as 181- which is today grrrr! But now that the weather is breaking I'll be able to be more active outside again- my goal is to get down to 170