31-08-2017, 10:19 AM
Connie, you are right of course. New glasses are on top of my list.
Regimen: Spearmint infusion is back. Reishi capsules seem to have an effect and I restocked. For the time being I gave up on subliminals. I now use Ainterol capsules instead of powder. Went to 1500 mg daily and it seems to give less kick than 1000 - 1200 mg of powder that I was used to. I now believe mental state and self perception matters A LOT. Feel like a woman 24/7, live like one and your body will need half the doses and still respond better. And I've decided to try green tea extract. If you are a user and can recommend a brand, please shoot me a quick PM.
The insurance situation has been resolved successfully and I'm looking forward to jumping on the train. Sexologist, psychologist, endocrinologist, group meetings with other transgender people... If all goes well, I could be on pharma in half a year. I pray it's not much longer.
In the end it took me three separate talks with my parents to penetrate all those layers of icy silence and communicate precisely the state I'm in but now the home situation is better too. I guess it's harder to be so tough on one's only failure-of-son, if one realizes why he's always failed so hard...:-|
In July and August I advanced my transition quite crudely and with abandon, taxing my relationships. It is so tempting to let actions do the talking for me but in the end I have to advise against it. My naivete in thinking people will interpret the hints correctly is apparently boundless:/. The best way is if course to talk with people openly and confidently, to prepare the ground way before major changes start happening.
Now I'm in the UK again, working. I did not even try to bring my transition with me. The feeling I'm torn from everything relevant is strong and I can't help falling back to the male role and mindset. No way I'm gonna give up though. It's just I'm already dedicating all my resources to the cause and I'm still afraid it might not be enough:).
I started a blog as one of the tools to keep me in touch with what I left behind for a while. So now I can dump my rants elsewhere:P. It's in Czech so if your command of the language is good enough, drop by and say "Tě péro!":D (But I'm surely gonna miss this sleek, smoothly flowing, detached English. In it I feel I can get away with much greater measure of nonsense, hehe.)
And for old times' sake a breast pic. They seem to be fuller but the growth is slow now.
Regimen: Spearmint infusion is back. Reishi capsules seem to have an effect and I restocked. For the time being I gave up on subliminals. I now use Ainterol capsules instead of powder. Went to 1500 mg daily and it seems to give less kick than 1000 - 1200 mg of powder that I was used to. I now believe mental state and self perception matters A LOT. Feel like a woman 24/7, live like one and your body will need half the doses and still respond better. And I've decided to try green tea extract. If you are a user and can recommend a brand, please shoot me a quick PM.
The insurance situation has been resolved successfully and I'm looking forward to jumping on the train. Sexologist, psychologist, endocrinologist, group meetings with other transgender people... If all goes well, I could be on pharma in half a year. I pray it's not much longer.
In the end it took me three separate talks with my parents to penetrate all those layers of icy silence and communicate precisely the state I'm in but now the home situation is better too. I guess it's harder to be so tough on one's only failure-of-son, if one realizes why he's always failed so hard...:-|
In July and August I advanced my transition quite crudely and with abandon, taxing my relationships. It is so tempting to let actions do the talking for me but in the end I have to advise against it. My naivete in thinking people will interpret the hints correctly is apparently boundless:/. The best way is if course to talk with people openly and confidently, to prepare the ground way before major changes start happening.
Now I'm in the UK again, working. I did not even try to bring my transition with me. The feeling I'm torn from everything relevant is strong and I can't help falling back to the male role and mindset. No way I'm gonna give up though. It's just I'm already dedicating all my resources to the cause and I'm still afraid it might not be enough:).
I started a blog as one of the tools to keep me in touch with what I left behind for a while. So now I can dump my rants elsewhere:P. It's in Czech so if your command of the language is good enough, drop by and say "Tě péro!":D (But I'm surely gonna miss this sleek, smoothly flowing, detached English. In it I feel I can get away with much greater measure of nonsense, hehe.)
And for old times' sake a breast pic. They seem to be fuller but the growth is slow now.