23-09-2014, 04:07 PM
Hey elaine! How are you today? I do not see your post as critical or judging, just honesty. And you are correct, the discussions have been pretty much about me. But that's partly due to every girlfriend I have had, I have explored my fem side in secret due to fear. This time around, we have been together for under 2 months and I told her all about my tendencies, fantasies, etc. Yesterday she asked if there was anything else she needs to know about me and I told her I would give up everything I am bargaining for right now with you (she has approved me to wear panties, bras, camis, womens jeans...selective few of course ones that are passable for men, and female tops that can pass slightly as unisex.) I have won a huge battle already and I feel adding to it is very selfish and such but I felt compelled to lay it out so its aware. She knows fully how much having breasts to me would mean to me. She has said she is against it right now, but give her time to marinate and adjust to the other stuff i want like the clothing and nails, and she would never stop me from doing what I wish would make me happy in my body but does feel it is changing what God gave you (we are pretty religious people and i guess its a reason why i have felt guilty even dabbling in this a lot) but I am who He has made me to be and I can't change my desires. And does feel a man with breasts isn't sexy but feels I am regardless.
I have 0 interest in men, I mean i feel bi curious when horny but other than that I am 100% woman. Being with another man while erotic in fantasy really grosses me out in the reality aspect so I dont think thats anything to worry about me telling her I want to be with a man. Plus shes a pretty adventurous woman in the bedroom. We discussed toys and she is really turned on in using strapons and chastity devices and such. So while she admits realizing her bf is ridiculously feminine inside, it coudl still be fun once used to it. Thanks for your reply and concerns trust me I lurked here for awhile before when i was with my ex and had similar issues and was in secret and because of people like you telling me its unfair and selfish made me realize that this time round I can't do it and just have to admit to it and tell her how i feel and how i am and if it works out it does if it doesnt than like i said we've only been together under 2 months, so if it doesn't i know im not emotionally attached and if she feels its too much hopefully she can separate to find a new man more her style without any emotions to hurt her in the break up. But i dont see that happening.
I have 0 interest in men, I mean i feel bi curious when horny but other than that I am 100% woman. Being with another man while erotic in fantasy really grosses me out in the reality aspect so I dont think thats anything to worry about me telling her I want to be with a man. Plus shes a pretty adventurous woman in the bedroom. We discussed toys and she is really turned on in using strapons and chastity devices and such. So while she admits realizing her bf is ridiculously feminine inside, it coudl still be fun once used to it. Thanks for your reply and concerns trust me I lurked here for awhile before when i was with my ex and had similar issues and was in secret and because of people like you telling me its unfair and selfish made me realize that this time round I can't do it and just have to admit to it and tell her how i feel and how i am and if it works out it does if it doesnt than like i said we've only been together under 2 months, so if it doesn't i know im not emotionally attached and if she feels its too much hopefully she can separate to find a new man more her style without any emotions to hurt her in the break up. But i dont see that happening.