27-03-2015, 09:37 PM
(27-03-2015, 08:13 PM)ClaraKay Wrote: ....
Bryony, many of your early posts influenced me to believe that I was AGP, although I prefer the less pejorative term 'cross dreamer' coined by Jack Molay. I now know that I am not.
Hi Clara,
I think "know" is a bit too certain. "Sure", I could believe. We are pretty sure that our brains are affected in the womb and develop as male or female. But what if this is a continuum? My feeling is that what I call autogynephilia (as a heretic, I do love manufactured pejoratives) is simply a point on that continuum.
I too got immediate relief. Since I no longer feel the sexual pressure of testosterone, I could also say that I am not (any longer) an autogynephile. You have a wife who is happy to let you express the inner woman externally, and I don't. How can you be certain that we are indeed different? If, like me, you got a sexual thrill at the idea of being female, I am quite sure it would have returned if you had stopped taking estrogen, and likely would now if you started on testosterone.
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I started to dress in feminine attire (I never cross dressed before that), and became excited about my developing breasts.
Not so different so far, except I had cross-dressed before. Now just suppose your wife had begged you not to. Given your relief from GD, I contend that you would have been able to cope with life, albeit without the level of satisfaction that you now enjoy. Can you honestly disagree with that?
Quote:I experienced a growing sense of mismatch between my inner and outer presence, and as I allowed these feelings to grow, it became clear that I was a man only in the outer appearance of my body. Inside I felt alive and comfortable as a woman.
I'm not surprised. I'm sure I would have experienced the same thing, had I been encouraged to take on that persona. However, I am quite sure that the act of taking on the female persona is self-reinforcing.
Quote:My male persona began to fade away. I began to present as a woman every chance I had. Asking for and receiving acceptance from my spouse, children, and close relatives, I am now living full-time in my authentic gender and am happier than at any time in my life.
ditto my previous point.
Quote:My point is that one doesn't always know the extent of one's cross gender identity in the beginning. We, here, warn about the dangers of 'playing' with estrogenic herbs to satisfy some ill-understood craving for female breasts while intending to maintain male identity. It can reveal aspects of your psyche that you never knew existed. It can turn your life upside down, or right side up.
I totally agree.
Quote:To all the new members at Breast Nexus, please be respectful of the power that these substances wield.
Amen to that.
B.