24-02-2015, 01:49 AM
Well, after a few weeks here I thought I would do a small introduction. Like most of you girls I seem to have a gender identity disorder. Its something I have been carrying around since before I was school age. As a child I was very sensitive, so much so I was often called a big girls blouse by some of my older male relatives. So, I ended up putting a mask on my feelings and pretended to be a "man" ( or boy at that time ). Fast forward to present, in my mid 50`s I sat down and opened up to my wife of 25+ years. Its taken almost a year, and some visits to several counselors for both of us. Its not all plain sailing, we still have our good days and bad days. In the last month or so I joined a local ( in the next town over ) Gender journeys program, so far I have only attended in drab as my wife has yet to see me dressed up. She likes to drop me off at the meetings and pick me back up. The group invited my wife to attend the Gender X program ( held after my meeting ) so she has been meeting with other trans males and females. ( this has turned out to be more beneficial than any counselor )
Presently, I have been shopping with my wife for female clothes and hopefully in the next week or so I should be able to attend as me, as I feel I should be. My wife has still not seen me dressed, but at her request I did dress and do a little makeup and added a cheap nasty wig, ( I hope to get a better wig in the next week or so ). She felt it was easier to see a picture of me first, so she could examine her feelings without having to confront it in reality.
I am going a lot slower than I would like to do, but for my marriage I am trying to go at her pace.
I am trying my hardest to be as open as I can, but after keeping things buried and private for 50 years or so its a real uphill struggle.
Anyhow ... As you can see by my avatar, this is Jamie.
Presently, I have been shopping with my wife for female clothes and hopefully in the next week or so I should be able to attend as me, as I feel I should be. My wife has still not seen me dressed, but at her request I did dress and do a little makeup and added a cheap nasty wig, ( I hope to get a better wig in the next week or so ). She felt it was easier to see a picture of me first, so she could examine her feelings without having to confront it in reality.
I am going a lot slower than I would like to do, but for my marriage I am trying to go at her pace.
I am trying my hardest to be as open as I can, but after keeping things buried and private for 50 years or so its a real uphill struggle.
Anyhow ... As you can see by my avatar, this is Jamie.