So it took some time, but i finally took the plunge and bought myself a "toy"
Thrusting Dildo Vibrator with 3 Thrusting Modes 9.5 inch Heating Dildo & Rotation 5 Vibration for Women Realistic Vibrating Dildo G Spot Vibrator Sex Toys with Strong Suction Cup
I paid 39 bucks for it, but it sure is worth it. it has rechargeable lithium ion battery (which you probably wiill have to charge it when it comes in). comes with short usb charging cord specific to the device. bought it off amazon and had it shipped to a local amazon locker, which i recently discovered (for privacy reasons). came in today, will take some getting used to, but hoping i can achieve an orgasm from it. Waiting on lube to come in tomorrow.
i tried it without lube, it feels good, but i am sure with lube it will be 10x better. its supposed to heat up too, but dont think i used it long enough to really feel the heat on it.
i wont add picture as it is realistic looking penis....
it comes with a little remote that you can adjust the speed/ thrust and vibration modes.. "plug and play" insert it and set the thrust. and/or vibration modes.. you dont even have to pull it in or out.. it also comes with a durable suction cup, (havnt tested it yet, but its thick), and according to info can be used as a strap on too...in case you have someone who wants to use it on you.
Highly recommended.